祝福

一时的冲动。。。为你带来了伤痛。。也在我的心里割了一个很深很痛的伤。。。

想起。。。为什么我会跟你说呢？？？酱我就给了你。。。毫无思考的给了你。。可是，我未曾后悔。。。因为我觉得我没有给错人。。。

爱一个人，能拥有他是最好不过，可是不能拥有也不能强求。。。只要你开心，我也会开心。。。伤心是，只要你肯，我愿意与你一起分担。。。分担你的一切起起落落，喜怒哀乐，甜酸苦辣。。我会永远在你身旁支持你、关怀你。。

无论如何，我也会等下去。。。不管多久多苦。。。我不想看到你的伤怀。。希望你能活得开开心心。。活得更精彩！

不该爱！！！

爱上一个不该爱的人真的很辛苦。。。

他有了爱人。。他们俩很恩爱。。而我？左右为难。。想对他说？可以吗？如果说了。。他会不会远离我呢？不对他说。。这秘密会到几时才公开呢？？好烦啊！

我不想破坏他们俩的感情。。。不，应该是说，我有这能力吗？更何况他对我亲如兄弟。。我不知要怎样办才好呢！！！现在我的知己正在忙。。唯一能诉说的对象没了。。。

这感情能藏在心中多久呢？？？这痛苦几时才会离我而去呢？？？

朋友

朋友就是那個總是不忘嘲笑妳胸圍的人.
朋友就是那個在你心中地位僅次於你的戀人的人.
朋友就是總是把他剛聽來的黃色笑話主角冠上你的名字去四處傳誦的人.
朋友就是總是拉著你的耳朵告訴你一些事情,隨即警告你絕對不能說出去的
朋友就是時常把你的秘密「一不小心」就洩漏出去的人.
朋友就是缺錢時第一個想到你的人.
朋友就是那個拍著胸脯告訴你「一切包在我身上」最後卻把爛攤子丟給你的人.
朋友就是那個女朋友來時, 就把你反鎖在門外的人.
朋友就是那個陪你去相親, 卻讓對方看上他的人...
朋友就是那個和你志同道合, 一同加入「道德淪喪委員會」的人.
朋友就是和你一起偷看A片、PLAYBOY長大的人.
朋友就是那個總是誠實的告訴妳妳的男友長得像shrek的人
朋友就是那個老是記得你發生過的每件糗事的人.
朋友就是那個自以為看透了你的人.
朋友就是在情人面前會抖出你一大堆糗事的人...
朋友就是會借房間鎖匙給你的人.
朋友就是供你發揮卑鄙性格的人.
朋友就是喜歡搶你口中美食的人.
朋友就是願意借你錢買保險套的人.
朋友就是在生日時送你內褲的人.
朋友就是介於親情與愛情之間的曖昧關係.
朋友就是必須要能靜, 能動, 還要能強冷.
朋友就是天塌下來時,還會把「幻滅是成長的開始」掛在嘴邊的樂天派.
朋友就是替你抱怨工作條件差、薪水少,還請你幫他安插個同樣職位的「難友」.
朋友就是相約再看一次「當哈利碰上莎莉」,在黑暗中懷疑彼此真正企圖的人...
朋友就是那個你為他有所犧牲時, 稱讚你「很上道」的人.
朋友就是那個說你不夠「阿沙力」, 自己卻很「龜毛」的人.
朋友就是那個時常把說好要介紹給你的馬子, 留著自己用的人.
朋友就是那個總能令你抓狂的人.
朋友就是幫你寫作業的人...
朋友就是老師點名時, 幫你答「有」的人.
朋友就是無怨無悔幫你「擦屁股」的人.
朋友就是陪你「爛」的人...
朋友就是缺錢時, 可以24H貸款的地方.
朋友就是常帶你去一些不該去的地方,和說一些你不敢說的話的人渣.
朋友就是自己上廁所時, 會叫你站在門外陪他聊天的嘔心傢伙.
朋友就是你需要快樂時他給你快樂, 你需要傾訴時,他給你時間的人.
朋友就是你說實話的時候, 第一個不相信的人.
朋友就是不管你要說什麼, 他永遠是一個忠實聽眾.
朋友就像破唱機, 沒事就要提醒你記得自己的長相.
朋友就是「臨陣倒戈」的渾蛋.
朋友就是天天見面, 就會討厭; 太久不見, 又會想念的傢伙.
朋友就是從來不給你真正良心建議的人.
朋友就是總搞不清狀況在大庭廣眾下, 高聲呼喚你不雅外號的人.
朋友就是只花10元為你買生日禮物, 卻盼望你感動得痛哭流涕的人.
朋友就是送你生日蛋糕時, 先把蛋糕上的櫻桃全吃掉的那個人.
朋友就是沒事賴到你家過夜, 早上還要用你的牙刷刷牙的人.
朋友就是你的東西都爭著與你共用的人.
朋友就是半夜會打電話叫你起床尿尿的人.
朋友就是那個專門給你捅樓子的驢蛋.
朋友就是搶著付賬, 但不一定拿出鈔票的人.
朋友就是拖著你徹夜長談, 害你第二天請假的人...
朋友就是月底時的無息錢莊, 翹家時的免費旅館

知己难寻

知己？我不确定，我也不敢去确定。知己对於我来说，太虚无飘渺了。

知己是什么？有谁能告诉我呢？知己意味着最清楚、最能容忍自己的人。他仿佛是自己的翻版，而又绝对是真实的。太抽象了！有谁能真正陪你哭，陪你苦，陪你发泄怒气呢？若有得选择，我会牢牢地抱紧知己，把他占为己有。。。但，知己难寻。。。

其实，许多人包括我自己都明白了寻找知己的途径。但，我们太懒惰，太不愿意去改变自己。许多人认为，没有知己的日子，他们也不是一样活得很开心吗？不，其实他们的心灵有少许空虚，缺少了知己的关怀，缺少这份难能可贵的友情。这种纯纯的友情，的确好温馨！无可否认对於有些人的另一半就是他们的知己。知己和另一半有分别吗？他们的分别就是知己能和你分享一些你不能和你的另一半分享的事。例如：你总不能和你另一半讨论你说看到的美女/俊男吧！

一個普通的朋友從未看過你哭泣。 一個真正的朋友有雙肩讓你的淚水濕盡。 一個普通的朋友不知道你父母的姓氏。 一個真正的朋友有他們的電話在通訊錄上。 一個普通的朋友討厭你在他睡了後打來。 一個真正的朋友會問為什麼現在才打來。 一個普通的朋友找你談論你的困擾。 一個真正的朋友找你解決你的困擾。 一個普通的朋友對你的羅曼史感到好奇。 一個真正的朋友可以威脅你說出來。一個普通的朋友在拜訪時，像一個客人一樣。 一個真正的朋友會打開冰箱自己拿東西。 一個普通的朋友在吵架後就認為友誼已經結束。一個真正的朋友明白當你們還沒打過架就不叫真正的友誼。 一個普通的朋友期望你永遠在他身邊陪他。 一個真正的朋友期望他能永遠陪在你?

如今，知己对我而说就是‘若隐若现’。。。可能是我自己想太多了。。有些事情不能用言语或承诺来肯定的。。需要用一颗真诚的心才能找到的。。得到肯定后，只要心中有彼此就行了。。这种友情可不是随意便可摘到的，而是要经过一番苦修得来的成果。若知己难寻，我们更应该努力寻求并珍惜他，不是吗？
把眼睛闭起来，好好为自己编织一个寻找知己的梦想，让此梦想随着自己成长。随着自己的心情飞翔！

无能为力。。。断点

无能为力

醒了我却还是闭着眼睛
只有这样才能留住梦境
还看见我最爱的眼睛
还有你偷偷亲吻我的情景
醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你
和你在一起数着天空里坠落的星星
你已经离我而去
爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
谁知道在白天遇见了你
看见你新的唯一靠在你怀里
我留给眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
曾经我们有过无数话题
爱到最后我们对爱竟会无能为力

断点

静静的陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸
不让你看见深藏的暗涌
已经越来越明显
过完了今天就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜
我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过的好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前在听见你的蜜语甜言

你舍得吗？

原来这一切都是我搞出来的。。。我不知道你是酱想的。。。其实我也有同感。。。这个‘家’ 没有我和你。。。以前我只是在乎他。。。现在。。。我不再为他了。。因为他没有为这想过。。。可能就是我们两个并没有成为知己的缘分。。。可能就是我一厢情愿罢了。。我时常想我对他很好而他没有对我有什么。。。时怨他。。。现在我终於明白了。。。他并不想。。。只是不要令我失望而已。。。短暂的人生里真希望有他做我的知己。。。很想很想。。可是我没有酱的福份。。真想停下休息。。和他在清静舒适的环境下像以前般聊天。。不能了解他。。或许注定我不能了解他。。原来我和他是两世界的人。。永远都不能成为我想象中那样。。

而你。。。说要放手。。你舍得吗？你有执着过吗？我知道你很想把我们弄成你正正的一个‘家’。。。不是好像我们现在酱。。。我们可能没有当你为很要好的朋友。。。可是问心一句。。。我有当你为朋友。。。真心的。。。不要为了一时的冲动而导致以后的后悔。。。让一切顺其自然吧！你说过。。。是你的就是你的。。。不是你的就不是你的。。。如果我们是有缘的。。。就继续这友谊吧。。。如果没有。。。就只好把我们经历的一切当成回忆。。。永远藏在心中。。。正如我说。。。一切就把它放在你我的心吧！有些事情将它埋起来效果会很好。。。但别把一切受在你心中吧！别把它跟他们说。。。因为这会带来很多麻烦。。。

你要保重啊！往后的日子没有我在你身旁，你要好好照顾自己啊！

执着

一起游玩。。一起作伴。。一起到厕所。。一起吃东西。。一起到处ponteng。。看到对方会兴奋。。拥有聊不完的话题。。对方的缺点全都不介意。。这些都已变成了回忆。。只能珍藏、珍惜。。。

为了这一切。。我给人笑。。给人说笨。。给人说是性趋向有问题。。给人骂。。难道我为了这份友谊所付出的都有错或用错方法吗？为这而执着酱久是错的吗？

原来。。我做的这一切带来了麻烦给你。。令你觉得有压力和烦恼。。久而久之。。你已觉得我开始反感了。。游玩？厕所？吃东西？不再一起了。。看到我等於没看到。。话题不再有了。。对我也不再一样了。。。

友谊。。没有公平不公平。。我不怪你。。可能我想太多了。。可能我变了。。可能你变了。。这些。。。我都不在乎。。。因为我不想再执着下去了。。不想再为你带来麻烦了。。。可能你说我容易放弃。。怨这怨那。。可是我对这份友谊坚持下去的理由已经很模糊了。。我知道你会说我令你感到失望。。。我酱做会很自私吗？我不想酱。。。我想在这短暂的人生里希望你能做我的知己。。很想很想。。可是我没有酱的福份。。。

我们的友谊因此而断开？我不知道。。我想这选择都在你手里。。如果你要就此断开？我无所谓(真心话？不。。我不想失去你。。) 缘起缘灭。。我把一切交给你和佛陀了。。。我会试着和你找回那失去的回忆与快乐。。你时常说：珍惜一切。。把握眼前的一切。。。失去了就别再后悔。。是你的就是你的。。不是你的就不是你的。。。不必强求。。我会试着明白这道理。。把心看开点。。

唉。。。毕业后。。我最不舍得的是你。。最担心的是你。。最放不开的也是你。。朋友啊！朋友。。。不管怎样。。不管你怎样对我。。不管友谊有多深。。我都会把你(们) 放在心里。。永不忘怀。。。因为我和你曾经有过快乐的日子。。

吵架-朋友...

很多时候，两个人时常吵架，他们肯定就是仇家或两个关系很好的人。。分别就是仇家不会或很难和好。。而两个关系很好的人却是表面吵得很热，一转头却嘻嘻哈哈的。。。

两个人，因为有着共同的目标、思想、背景或其他的因素而成为朋友。。。至於关系好坏的程度就看两人的造化了。。。有人说吵架可是种情趣，可以联络感情。。可是两个男的或女的怎么可以说是情趣啊？联络感情？可能吧！就是看两人之间的关系去到哪里吧！因为感情较浅的两个人吵架可能会破坏之间的友谊。。当两个人的友谊到了一定的程度时，吵架可能是家常便饭吧！我说得对吗？

两个感情很好的人时常会因为一些小事情而吵架。。感情越好，吵得越多，为的事情也越琐碎。。电视节目、电影和小说里所谈的‘兄弟情’啦。。。‘姐妹情’ 啦。。。都能出生入死啦。。感情好到可以共穿一条内裤啦。。或共拥有一个另一半啦。。。都是骗人的！！！可能有50%是真的吧。。现实生活中，有哪几个朋友会做到如此呢？？如果有，机会是很少的。。也请珍惜。。可我。。可能就没酱的福气吧！可能你是酱想，未必你的朋友是酱想的！

除此，两人(不论是2男、2女或1男1女)很多都会因为另一半的因素而吵架和感情渐渐淡了下来。。这可能是之前感情过於浓，导致两人经常在一起，而当其中一人遇到另一半时，他没有，也不会再有时间和他的死党像以往一样一起颠了。。这样这死党不多不少也会感觉到被抛弃或妒忌或羡慕的感觉了。。如果这死党思想未成熟，他(死党)就是不会酱轻易放过他了。。而如果这死党思想够成熟，他(死党)就会原谅他对自己所做的一切一切。。

真心朋友就是酱。。。无论对方有多错多坏。。他们还是能原谅对方，在一起和好相处。。还有，两个朋友相处，重要的是对彼此的信赖和尊重。。。有件事很想讲，就是身为朋友，当你遇到挫折时，我们都会站在你身旁给于支持。。无论你的选择是对或错。。选择永远是你的，我们只能给于支持。。但如果你以后想我坦白，就说吧！也没用，因为你都不听我讲的！哈哈。。。我虽然没有这福气，也不知以后会不会有，可是我很高兴有这‘兄弟’。。不管以后日子怎样，你怎样对我。。我还是真心祝福你。。永远快乐。。我也想对我之前幼稚的想法把你弄得痛不欲生致上万分歉意。。(如果你还记得什么事)。。哈哈。。。(有时不是故意弄你的啦。。。也不是有意想惹你生气的。。可是我酱的脾气能做到酱算好吧？？哈哈。。我会改进的！！)

我差点忘了。。。还有水果家族呢！！！谢谢你们的‘照顾’ 和‘爱戴’ 啊！！希望我们以后有缘能再续我们的水果真情啊！！！其他朋友也是！！！谢谢你们一路的支持！！！

Tears...

I m suppose to be studying my sejarah now… but after reading erin’s n kc’s blog… it urges me a lot to write tis blog… as u guys know… I m a very ‘sensitive’ guy… or u can say ‘emotional’ guy… I get happy, excited, sad, cry n angry fast… after reading their recent post… on ‘die=end??’ n ‘Going to miss Chinese New Year next year?’ … tears started to fall… I duno y… I had tried to tahan it on graduation day… but y not tis time?? Tears… its just another way of expressing urself … to somebody..it may also means a way to release…

I had categorize tears into 5 main different tears…
1… tears of joy
- tis kind of tears will flow down when u are VERY happy about something…
- for example.. when u get 1st in some international competition…
2… tears of laughter
- tis kind of tears will flow (actually tis kind doesn’t flow) when u hear or see something VERY funny…
- for example… when u see Desmond falls down bcoz he stepped on a ‘slippery’ dog shit…
3. tears of sadness
- tis kind of tears will flow when u are VERY sad…
- for example… when u hear about someone u noe met with an accident…*touch wood*
4. tears of relieve
- tis kind of tears will flow when u had just overcome something very difficult…
- for example … when u finish ur SPM…
5. tears of sleepy
- tis kind of tears will flow when u yawn or feel very sleepy..
- for example… when u study in the middle of the night n then u yawn…

Tears… sometimes crying is not something girlish to do… sometimes u will feel good after u cried… there are also times when u need to cry alone… n there are also times when u need to find someone u trust n ‘borrow’ their shoulders or back or just beside u to cry…. I heard from somewhere about tears… ‘humans tears significant 执着, 遗憾… ghosts tears significant 重生, 希望….’ How far u believe tis? It depends on u n I will leave tis to ur imagination…

Faith

Faith… is confident or trust in someone or something… having faith in others also means having faith in urself… for example.. having faith in others to do well makes u feel confident that u have made the right choice… it is very important to have faith in someone or something… to me… if u have everything but faith… u will failed in wateva u are doin… even on humans… relationships wont work out if u dun have faith in it…

Recently, I have lost faith in everything I m doing… I have also lost faith in others… sometimes I feel that I hav done nothing but dozens of wrong things… everything I did to make things or relationship happens… I think I had done a bad job… I know that I look short, ugly, annoying… but last time I had convince to myself that it doesn’t matter… but now… I feel that it does…

My relationship with my frenz are great… I can say…. But now… I doubt it… I have 5 very good frenz… one of it is my best… I think… I hope… 6 of us are like a ‘family’… I have no idea when we are called a fruits family…n hu thought of the names??? Hhmmm.. I think its me… haha… I tot I had done a lot to make all tis ‘family’ to keep as a family… but I had lost faith… I felt that it is breaking apart… part by part…. If u see closely… it is…. I think I had done things to make my relationship between me n my ‘best’ fren work out… but I dun think its working… its just like… erm.. I duno… it feels kinda weird… both of us just argue or quarrel non stop for no reasons… things are not like the ‘best’ frenz in movies… sometimes I noe I m being very selfish n immature coz I stops all his freedom…

Besides… doin things…esp in temple… I noe when n where n how to do the stuff… but I just dun have the faith to do it… I just quiet down… its not that I dun wanna help… but I m just…. If u understand me… pls forgive me in tis…(u noe hu u r)… I let others to do… or others to guide me… sometimes…I did the thing half way…then I stop… bcoz I dun have faith in it anymore… haihz… I m really bad…

Haihz… I just lost my self-confidence…. In many things… I duno y I had give up so easily tis time… everytime I do something… I have faith in it….n I hope for miracles to happen… or sometimes some reward…. I noe I shouldn’t hope for reward… but… something in return its just like a feedback for me to let me noe that having faith is something good to do… not something wasteful or just a word… at least let me noe my ‘faith’ bears fruits…

Forgive me, my frenz...

When someone done something wrong, they will do all sorts of things…some are reasonable n some aren’t… some will seek God for apologies or confessions…some will promise the same thing doesn’t happen anymore… some will hurt own self or others… some will ask for guidance…. Some will ‘buy’ Indulgences (learn from sej form 4)… For me.. for certain things… I choose the ancient way – make confessions and seek apologies from the ones I had done something wrong towards them…

1. being grumpy at all times…
2. scolding people for no reasons…
3. teasing people…
4. hitting/punching/slapping people because of small matters or nothing at all…
5. disturbing people every sec, minute, hour, day, week, month n year…
6. nagging on people a lot…
7. doing things without thinking of others feelings…
8. not helping when others are in need…
9. always tell things without str8 4ward…
10. ask too many stupid questions…
11. ‘fight’/ ’argue’/ ‘quarrel’ bcoz of small matters…
12. dun believe in others…
13. lied to others…
14. dun listen to others…
15. dun get wateva u guys are talking about…
16. betray others…
17. being selfish…
18. talk too loud…
19. being childish/immature…
20. crap about stupid things…
21. jealous of something…
22. wakes people up in the middle of the night…
23. being sarcastic…
24. think too much…

I think there is more but I cant think of it… plz help me out with it if u noe anything I did wrong n need apologies… Plz… help me by telling me I m forgiven by u or not… it really means a lot to me… thx… n if possible..pls tell me wat I did to u… so I can recall it easily.. thx… I shall end tis post with a BIG ‘THANK YOU’ n ‘SORRY’ from the bottom of my heart…

Anger

Anger… is a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence… almost everyone on earth have anger… it is not guilty to be angry at times… but it is the way you show your anger n the number of times it happens that matters… this is where anger management comes in… but in this post, I m not going to talk about anger management because I am one who cant control my anger…so its sarcastic to talk about it…

I had analyze the times that my frenz are angry… the degree of anger is all different… as it is like my previos post ‘smilez’…its just the same thing… but this is just about ‘angry moments’….

Kc…
1. angry when I disturb him every sec, minute, hour, day n week…
2. angry when people tell him something not str8 4ward…which he hav to guess himself…
3. angry when people wake him up for no reason…
4. angry when people juz sit there while others are busy…not helping..
5. angry when people come to his house suddenly n expect him to go out with them…
5. angry when I ask too many stupid questions….
6. angry when ‘fight’/ ’argue’/ ‘quarrel’ bcoz of small matters….
7. angry when I nag on him a lot…

Khee…
1. angry when I dun tell her things honestly…
2. angry when I dun understand wateva she is teaching…
3. angry when she ‘eat dead cat’ ….
4. angry when people lie to her…
5. angry when people ask her things when she r thinking…
6. angry when people around her are not united…
7. angry when she is sleepy...

Erin…
1. angry when I tease her…
2. angry when ‘sim sim’ make bunny ears on her head…
3. angry when she wont get to see us after she departs to Australia…
4. angry when nobody listens to wateva she is talking…
5. angry when she dun get wat we are talking about…

Xuan…
1. angry when people dun giv her wat she wan…
2. angry when eating ‘chicken ass’…
3. angry when other girls prettier than her…
4. angry when I tease her…
5. angry when she dun get wat we are talking about…

Leng…
1. angry when people betray her…
2. angry when people dun respect the frenship they have…
3. angry when she is disturb many times(esp ah liang)…
4. angry when she is chosen for NS…
5. angry when people make fun of her hair…

Angry is a way to show your emotions… n show how u feel about thing…it is a good thing to do sometimes… but over acting it will make matters worse… try to take control of ur anger n let it out at suitable moments…

Changing World...

Nowadays, the world is changing in a very high speed… politically, socially, economically etc… even the mother nature is changing..

Anything its possible to happen… proof? (politic) USA pentagon is being bombed… War had begun between some strong countries… (mother nature) Katrina hits New Orleans… Tsunami hits Asia… (social) homosexual issues are brought into movies n TV programs... Guys are starting to wear pink/purple and use a lot of different cosmetic products… (economy) I had run out of money!!!!!

I would like to drag your attentions to the field – social… I do not know you guys have notice or not… but I tend to realize that there are more n more homosexual issues being brought into the movies n TV programs… Does anybody remember of any shows in the past have this issue? I wouldn’t say none at all…but the amount is VERY little compare to nowadays… I didn’t say that I discriminate homosexuals… what I want to say is that the world is changing vastly n quickly…

Sometimes humans tend to get influence by the TV programs and movies… they think that if two guys or girls are being very close to each other (like buddies), they are homosexual! What in the world are you guys thinking?!?!?!?! If you ask me… the most dangerous n deadly weapon a human have is their mouth… it’s the things that they say which ‘kills’ people….

To me… I m using guy as an example.. if both of them are best buddies… there aren’t any problems if they touch each others hand…I mean not fondling lar…. There aren’t problems if they share saliva’s(not kissing) or stuff (not gf) such as clothes n undies(if relationship is very good) or foods & drinks… they really don’t mind sharing undies actually… haha… There aren’t also any problems if they sleep on the same bed or stay on the same small surface(bench or chairs)… hhmmm… being sarcastic.. there aren’t even any problems if these guys accidentally put their hands or legs on their frenz if they are sleeping… you know… people have dreams or perhaps dream walking… HAHAHA…

Sorry if I had offended anyone with the post above… I just wanna share to you some of my opinions…

Smilez

The thing that really attracts me is a person’s smile…I had seen different kinds of smile in my whole life.. Different smiles under different situations have different meanings… One’s smile can break your heart or melt it… Only the person who are close to you only knows the different smiles u have and their meanings… I had crack my head on evaluating u guys.. hope that I am right…hehe

Kc…
1.smile when you are happy…
2.smile when you are relieved after something tiring or obstacles…
3.smile when something just ‘pop’ into your mind…
4.smile when you get something with ‘maksud tersirat’…
5.smile when you are satisfied after you had your meal or enough sleep…
6.smile when you are being polite…
7.smile when you are up to something ‘evil’
8.smile when everyone around you are happy or praise you…

Yk…
1.smile when you are feeling great…
2.smile when you able to solve your maths calculation…
3.smile when the person around you got the maths calculation you taught correct…
4.smile when you get trust from someone you care…
5.smile when you are up to something ‘evil’

Erin…
1.smile when you are depressed or stress out…
2.smile when you have nothing to do…
3.smile when you have frenz around you that cares for you…
4.smile when you are called ‘dumbo, fuji apple, zhu ling ling’...
5.smile when you don’t understand what your frenz are saying or after you got it..

Xuan….
1.smile when you are feeling happy…
2.smile when you get something you want…
3.smile when you are up to something ‘evil’
4.smile when you are relieve after the exams n results…
5.smile when you did something wrong or stupid…

Leng...
1.smile when you fell safe n happy…
2.smile when you are confident…
3.smile when you did something others cant do…such as DNA mixer(I got sit ar)…
4.smile when you are up to something ‘evil’
5.smile when you are being polite…

smile always… u duno when people will fall for ur charming smiles…. If u smile/laugh for 3 minutes a day.. u will get one extra day of lifetime… but plz… dun laugh every minute everyday..bcoz ppl will think that u r mad… :D

Sleepless yet Happy night...

I really have no idea y I had done it…. Haihz… actually I wanted it to happen… but the timing was a bit… erm… not right… y did we chose the week b4 SPM to do it???i mean ‘I’….y did I chose the ‘right’ timing…

It was kinda fun… actually… relaxing too… do u noe tat humans can be very energetic when u r talking / crapping about the topic u like?? Even if u r VERY sleepy… u wud be awaken or energetic if u are talking to ur close fren about the topic u like the most….

Well… I had try b4 not sleeping at night… erm.. bout 3 or 4 times I think… But tis time I really….really… err…. ‘Sot’ I guess.... Haha… bcoz I had chat / crap with him for the whole night… its not tat we hadn’t seen each others for a very long time… we see each other almost everyday… I m still figuring out y I can tahan so long… haha… I m not saying we are very talkative…or perhaps I m… argh… guys now are more talkative than girls..tis is supported by evidences….

The most interesting part is tat…. We had eat n eat n eat non stop for the whole night… LOL…. We are very small in size… but the amount we can eat is ENORMOUS… my frenz… u shud noe how much I can eat… or perhaps some of u onli… If my memories serve me right… I think tat we had eat some porridge, sundaes, burger, half boiled egg, milo, chocolate cake, ginseng drink ………. I think I had finish the food at his house… hehe…. I promise the next time I come to stay over… I will bring some supplies!!!( if I still have a chance) haha…

Another funny thing was… when I was very energetic… he was very sleepy… but when he was very energetic… I was very sleepy… but the onli 2 times tat we both are in the same mood was… 6am in the morning… which is our sleeping time… n the times of ‘FEAST’… we had NEVER felt sleepy or lazy when it comes to eating… hehe… not to say we are gluttons.. but… we are growing kids… we shud eat more.. haha… we had agreed to wake up at 10am…. But…. We….. ended up waking up bout 12.30noon…hehe..

Ps…erin n yk… u guys really wanna join next time??? U sure bout it?? Can u guys dun sleep till next morning?? Lolx… I doubt it dude….

Grumpy + ....

Hhmmm.. after reading erin’s blog.. n comments from u guys…. It urges me to write a blog…hahahha…

I noe tat I m very grumpy at times… but… does it really SHOW tat much??? T.T… I m so bad… always so bad temper… grumpy.. so guys.. for making u all suffer from my temper..aka ‘lai yeh’ by u ‘smart’ frenz out there..haha.. n kc, I have whisper… thankz for asking me… but tat doesn’t help..i need some ‘medicine’ to help me… for example.. money to get my driving license… or perhaps..u noe wat I wan *evil laughters*…

U guys wud noe tat I had comment or said on tis over n over again..but I still hav to make it clear for u guys… I m NOT gay.. btw…I dun really think tat being gay is a crime… n frenz shouldn’t leave them juz bcoz they are gay… if u r a good fren… or perhaps a ‘gentleman’ or ‘human’ …u shud giv them support… not leave them!!! They are humans too… they have feelings… do u noe tat it realy hurts when they see ppl around them discriminate them?? Try to think urselfà suddenly ur fren n family n community turns away from u… make jokes out of u… its not ur 5 senses tat discriminate… its ur heart tat does.. if u dun wan it to happen… it wont.. it all comes from the heart…

Once… I remember it clearly… I was being fren with another guy.. then ppl started to say we are like gays… n I like him n stuff… then… he started to change his attitude towards me.. he turns away from me…n there… a fren left me… juz bcoz ppl says tat I m gay… but I m NOT… the next year… I made fren with kc… the same thing happens… I really….. I duno wat to say… its really ANGRY!!! Wat did I do in my past life to get rumours like tis?? Well.. as u can see from the comments in my previous post.. kc did try n tot of leaving me… but luckily he didn’t… I can say u r a GREAT fren… indeed… thx for it.. I dun care u had done anything wrong to me… n pls dun say sry n blame urself again.. (din copy from erin)…
Omg.. I m talking bout kc again..actually I m not… my main point is not him…

Bad Weekend

On Friday.. I receive a call from kc… he told me tat he is goin to school for co-curriculum activities… in my heart I really lazy to go… but I long time din go liao..then he ask me mar… so I agree lor… n tis cause me the time for sleeping… I hav to get my ass up at 8am… on a ‘holiday’!!!! ridiculas right?? Haha…well I normally wakes up bout 12 in the noon… after school.. I came back to my house with him… we bake cake… for erin’s bday… well…we had to bake 2 cakes bcoz the 1st one failed.. hehe… well..wat do u aspect from 2 guys?? Bout evening.. we went to temple.. till midnight onli come back.. it was so tiring … I m a small guy u noe?? So its normal… n luckily I din get grumpy or scold anybody tat day… u guys might noe bout my temper…

Next day, I was waken up by kc’s msg… I forgot wat he says liao… hehe.. I hav a bad memory… but I was really tired n grumpy at tat moment… so I think I had sounded bad to him… sry ya…. So I woke up in a bad temper… my mom started yelling at me when I 1st step out my room… bcoz I had to clean my room up..its in a mess… then I found out tat there is no lunch on the table.. so I had to cook myself.. I hav to fry rice for my family too… n yet I m in a hurry coz I had promise to reach kc’s house at 2pm..but it was 2+ tat time… so I rush n rush… n my family members all nag n nag n nag on me… saying me tis n tat… so we had some ‘shows’ goin on…

tat time I really feel like goin to kc’s house.. duno y… everytime I feel sad or anyting.. I wud go to him.. although he dun really care bout me… but I still tells him bout it… well.. I m not gay… I m depressed at the moments..i dun hav a gf…so, the onli person I find is someone close to me… I mean from the gender wise n ….. duno how to say… juz feels safe n relief when I tells him… although many times I had argue with him for some silly reasons… n angry bout him… he still remains as my ‘closest’ fren… can I say tat??? I always stay at home alone bcoz my family members hav to work… I maybe too sticky to my fren…esp him… but i…. i…i…. haihz…

tat night after temple n party at erin’s house… I felt… I felt tat I dun wanna go home yet.. but due to certain circumstances.. I hav to leave early… well.. tell u guys the truth.. I was hungry tat time.. n I had plan to eat supper at 12midnight… sry erin… u hav to eat the food over n over again.. tat time I really wanna stay over at kc house… or perhaps stay some where else… I noe I had kacau him a lot liao.. maybe tis time dun stick to him tat much lar… coz he needs freedom..n ppl had say tat we r… or twins liao… ggrrrr…. WE R NOT TWINS!!!! Stop saying tat…. I really hope to juz lie on the bed n listen to music n him there to acc me… sometimes I really wan to b quiet…but need wan a person next to me… he/she shall not speak… or perhaps a little.. tat really… feels good n relax… esp under stress n from nagging from other ppl…

well …tats it for today.. I hav to sleep now..its about 2am now.. my mom is nagging at me now… the beer n whisky really makes me sleepy… I hope I dun get rashes again like last time… n thx guys… for bein such a nice fren… n thx for the presents…

PS…. Kc…. Thx for being such a great fren to me..thx for tahan me… I noe how u think bout me… juz thx n sry lar…

Life After Graduation!!!

Hhmmm…I m kinda new here…well..i started blogging since last year…but I hav stopped… now… I think the heat is here again…so I decided to start blogging again…hehe..
I saw my frenz blog…most of them wrote about graduation, frenships n dedications to their frenz…I was thinking..do I have to do tat??? I wanna b diff from the others..so I came out with the idea of writing about life after graduation…
Life after graduation to me also means tat the life of becoming an adult… a FULL adult.. taking in much more responsibilities…power… domination…stress…actually tis really scares me…life in high school was unforgetful n joyful…esp the days of my last 2 years in high school..its a ‘bugging bug world’ out there..i hope I get tis phrase correct…the world out there is full of sorrow, stress n domination…if u ask me… I wud say tat I m not prepare to step into the ‘world’ yet…
My teacher once told me tat we must cherish n appreciate our frenship tat we had bond in high school..it is bcoz it is the PUREST of all…I agree with her…after graduation.. after they step into the ‘world’..most ppl tend to b ‘selfish’…I think I shall use the word ‘selfish’…they tend to ‘use’ other ppl as stepping stones to success n anything… some even lost their humanity… but its nature my frenz… they understand that the fittest n strongest will outcast n outbeat the weakers concept… tis applies to every living being include humans, animals, plants etc… so we must treasure n cherish the frenship we have now.. bcoz its hard to get a SOULFUL n TRUTHFUL frenship in the ‘world’…
Dear frenz.. remember tis… yesterday is the history… its meant to be remembered n stay as a memory… today is the present.. its meant to be cherish n treasure… tomolo is the future.. its meant to be happy n full of brightness… need to work hard to plan n oraganise n do good deeds to ensure its nice…
Well..its onli 2 days after my graduation day… I juz slept thru it…. N watch tv n listen to zhang jing xuan… so..tis is my life after it… I duno wat will happen in the future.. but I hope its full of surprises n happiness… n I hope I will go thru the high n low with my family n frenz…