Faith

Faith… is confident or trust in someone or something… having faith in others also means having faith in urself… for example.. having faith in others to do well makes u feel confident that u have made the right choice… it is very important to have faith in someone or something… to me… if u have everything but faith… u will failed in wateva u are doin… even on humans… relationships wont work out if u dun have faith in it…

Recently, I have lost faith in everything I m doing… I have also lost faith in others… sometimes I feel that I hav done nothing but dozens of wrong things… everything I did to make things or relationship happens… I think I had done a bad job… I know that I look short, ugly, annoying… but last time I had convince to myself that it doesn’t matter… but now… I feel that it does…

My relationship with my frenz are great… I can say…. But now… I doubt it… I have 5 very good frenz… one of it is my best… I think… I hope… 6 of us are like a ‘family’… I have no idea when we are called a fruits family…n hu thought of the names??? Hhmmm.. I think its me… haha… I tot I had done a lot to make all tis ‘family’ to keep as a family… but I had lost faith… I felt that it is breaking apart… part by part…. If u see closely… it is…. I think I had done things to make my relationship between me n my ‘best’ fren work out… but I dun think its working… its just like… erm.. I duno… it feels kinda weird… both of us just argue or quarrel non stop for no reasons… things are not like the ‘best’ frenz in movies… sometimes I noe I m being very selfish n immature coz I stops all his freedom…

Besides… doin things…esp in temple… I noe when n where n how to do the stuff… but I just dun have the faith to do it… I just quiet down… its not that I dun wanna help… but I m just…. If u understand me… pls forgive me in tis…(u noe hu u r)… I let others to do… or others to guide me… sometimes…I did the thing half way…then I stop… bcoz I dun have faith in it anymore… haihz… I m really bad…

Haihz… I just lost my self-confidence…. In many things… I duno y I had give up so easily tis time… everytime I do something… I have faith in it….n I hope for miracles to happen… or sometimes some reward…. I noe I shouldn’t hope for reward… but… something in return its just like a feedback for me to let me noe that having faith is something good to do… not something wasteful or just a word… at least let me noe my ‘faith’ bears fruits…