Year End

Year is approaching to the end. Review back. What have I done ? Nothing.
I have been through a lot. and Learned a lot from it. Especially towards the end of the year.
I choose not to wait anymore. Not to hold on anymore. Maintain what is best for all of us.
I do not know what is right or wrong in your eyes. But there is no definite right or wrong.
All I want know is just this......

误会

人與人之间为什么有那么多误会？！而且通常──
越在乎的人，你反而越會對他產生誤會，
越在乎的人，一犯錯反而越不能原諒他，
越在乎的人，你反而對他會越不客氣，
越在乎的人，你反而越會裝做不在乎。

Fragile Fragile Fragile...

Life is so fragile...
One moment you are talking happily with someone, the next moment, that someone flew off to heaven... Before you sleep, you check on someone, you can see movements and hear snoring.. The next day, that someone flew off again. What were your last words to that someone ? Life is filled with so many uncertainties. We won't know what will happen next moment. If you love that someone, tell him/her that you love him/her. Don't wait. Go do what you are supposed to do. Go and tell your loved ones that you love/care them. Don't wait until you lose that chance only regret.

Life is so fragile, Dont you just feel like hugging your loved ones as tight as possible now ? Or kiss them until they are filled with your saliva? ^.^

Random

很多時候，「平凡」反而是上帝賜給一個人最不起眼，
卻也最寶貴的禮物。當你能飛的時候就不要放棄飛
當你能夢的時候就不要放棄夢
當你能愛的時候就不要放棄愛

人生的無奈太多！太多了！
可是，仔細想想，幸福、快樂的事，其實，也不少！
當幸福來時，就讓自己多點勇氣！抓住，屬於你的幸福。
告訴自己，其實，自己是幸運的！只想，在風中，祝福～你～～

Random

愛一個很愛自己的人，真的很幸福～～
如果你遇見了這樣一個稻草人
不要太快生他的氣
想想他為你做的努力
如果你遇見了秋天 不要笑他無理取鬧
想想他是因為愛你 才會變得容易生氣
愛有時不只是默默付出就能懂
偶爾也需要適時說出口
不要吝嗇把愛藏在心中

Lessons

Human nature...
Only we have fallen down or made mistakes or lost it, we learned things and lessons through it. But it is always too late to do so. People tend to move forward and never look behind. If you have lost someone/something because you did not understand some things, then you will lose that someone/something forever. Because he/she/it will never look back anymore or gone forever.

I have learned a lot recently. But is there a chance left for me to let me perform again?

Christmas eve..

I have become weird, unsocialise and eccentric recently. I stayed at home.. doing nothing but just staring at my msn list with nobody online. Who would be online on this very night ? The magical season filled with miracles... It is supposed to be a very happy, warm and romantic night. But... LOL.. All I want for christmas is just this hope. This tiny little wish to come true. I guess it wont come true for me. The bigger the hope, the greater the disappoint. It is true.

Merry Christmas ! If there is still anyone reading this blog.

It is the matter of WHEN, not WHO...

Been watching the movie 'Definitely, Maybe'.. It is about a boy going to New York City to pursue his dreams. From Boy->Man, he had 3 relationships with 3 girls/women. On and off. To cut the story short, One became the mother of his child. One became his lover at the end of the show.

I found out that, the question is isn't about who. It is about when. I have heard countless people telling me that he is not suitable for me, she is not my type, he is not my Mr.Right, she does not match with me. These became the reasons of so many break ups. Actually, that person might match you. It is just your effort to make it worth while. And timing is essential.

For example, A girl wants a mature thinking guy who is caring and wants a marriage. But at the same time, that guy have not experienced enough to be mature for the girl, and is still new at relationships, thus he does not want to get married any sooner. So, they might think that they are not meant for each other. Tolerance comes into the picture. When tolerance reaches the limit before each other grow into the person that they each wants, thousands of reasons would appear for a break up. If they failed to overcome these obstacles together as a couple, break up is the ending.

Years later, as both of them grow and change, they are attracted to each other more than before. The guy had grown into a mature thinking man who wants a family, after what he had experienced in life and work. As for the gal, she had turned into a swan who knows how to take care of herself and others well. Now, they are the perfect match for each other.

Well, it is just one of the example. People always say that they fell for the wrong guy/girl. It isn't the case. It is the timing. The stage where he/she is at. Nobody is perfect and everyone starts from zero. We learn through mistakes and grow from it. People go through stages of life. They were once childish, stupid, self centered, hot tempered, selfish and do not know how to appreciate. Then they experience things and learn from mistakes. They became mature, smart, caring, altruistic, selfless and know how to appreciate things and people.

It is faith that brings two being together. It is very hard for two to know each other and fell for each other at the same time and be together. Appreciate the person you love. Don't give up so easily when obstacles occur. Obstacles are meant to be solved together. Look beyond it. Look beyond his/her weaknesses. You have weaknesses as well. Tolerate his/her weaknesses. Your strengths will supplement his/her weaknesses. Vice versa. As time passes, they will grow and change into your perfect person. Time is essential. It is whether your love and relationship can withstand time or not. That is the challenge ^.^

Every Breath You Take

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you

O can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches with every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

眼泪

曾经有人说：‘人的眼泪代表执著，鬼的眼泪代表重生和爱’. 眼泪得流下是一种情绪的发泄。憋了很久的情绪或接受不了突如其来的变化都借由眼泪发泄出来...有时候不是说值不值得为谁而掉眼泪，而是因为那一时刻的情绪让眼泪流了出来...要强忍泪水是件很艰难的事情...

当情人离开了，泪水地流下并不是只有‘不值得为他流下的伤心眼泪’，还有‘回忆起无法再和他一起度过美好时光的不舍眼泪’。有人告诉我，回想起一切的美好时光，知道这个曾经时时刻刻都陪着你爱着你的人将会永远离开你的生活，那千万般的不舍是非笔墨能形容的...再加上爱得越来越深时，他却选择在那时离开你..这更是更痛...


曾经我阅读过一篇文章：一滴泪落下需要多少时间

我知道，这问题问得似乎很傻。那么轻盈的一滴,流过脸庞，常常只在瞬间。如果是那些琼瑶苦情戏里的演员，几秒钟就可以泪流满面。又何必问，一滴泪，落下的时间？

可我常常觉得，流下一滴眼泪，需要很久很久。人越长大，就越习惯于压抑内心的真实 感受，不再放声大哭放声大笑，什么都只是淡淡的点到为止。好像越来越没有什么事情，可以让我伤心到立刻落泪，像是传说中丢失了泪腺的骆驼，再也找不出，释 放伤感的出口。于是一滴泪，在渗出眼眶之前，早已在心中酝酿了许久，甚至可能在落下之前，已经悄悄蒸发。

一个朋友前阵子和男朋友分了手，一帮死党本来是要赶来安慰她受伤的心的，可她却笑我们太八卦，生生把电影里的伤感离别当成了现实。女孩天天照常上班，吃饭，讲荤笑话，活得滋润而充实，好像比分手前还要容光焕发。

然后一晚，几个死党开玩笑对着蜡烛许愿，又把蜡烛放的老远，说这样都能吹灭方能如愿以偿。几个人嘻嘻哈哈都成功了，轮到了她的时候，偏偏那烛火顽强起来，如何奄奄一息都能死灰复燃，在那里挑逗般的摇曳，于是众人起哄说你没戏了死心吧……

她的眼泪一瞬间喷涌出来，滚滚而下，还在兀自拼命吹着不肯罢休。我从来没有见过这样一种汹涌的哭泣，那不是在流泪，简直是飞流直下三千尺，仿佛她身体里的水突然绝堤。她就那样泪如泉涌的哭了很久，终于承认，她还喜欢他，她是在悄悄不争气的许愿，可以破镜重圆。

她一直辛苦的忍着忍着，不愿那么软弱，不想给人同情的借口，她不愿，让他以为她没有了他就不行。于是那么多悲伤的水，就在心里长久的堆积。她其实一直在流泪的，只是我们看不见，它暗暗流淌了。那么长时间，终于在那一刻可以，一泻千里。

我不知道这是隐忍了多久的泪水，但它终于在这样一个湿润的早上，急速的落下，嚣张的释放。我想还可以有时间有机会自由的哭，总是好的；还可以狠狠的流出眼泪，就说明心还没有干涸；还可以感觉到痛，那是因为灵魂，还没有苍老麻木。

一滴眼泪，要用多长时间，才可以自由释放？……

random

When you know how to appreciate and love that someone, whatever obstacles wont be any barriers anymore. No matter what are the obstacles, think back what had attracted you to be with that someone till you are a couple now. It is part of the work of faith that got you guys together. Of billions of people in the world, you have met, attracted and fell in love with each other at the same time. What are the odds?! Cherish and appreciate with all your heart, soul and life. This does not happen often. Since has loved, do not regret, do not give up easily. Obstacles are meant to be solve by a couple AS a couple. Remember that feeling, that thought and those you had gone through just to be with that someone. Then you will walk a long path together with that someone.

Meaningful songs..

Recently i have been listening to lots of songs.. nice and meaningful songs.. some i have posted the lyrics here.. then i came across these two songs by 潘裕文... those are just some of my thoughts after listening to these songs.. It does not hint anything.

我和你从未分手

心是片土地 我是一个园丁
歌 种一朵花叫做爱情 呵护着不离不弃
当花季远去 眼泪带我旅行
你好吗?我好想你 常常写信寄给回忆
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

空空的夜空 城市燃起灯火
每一盏灯一种寂寞 愿你幸福别漂流
蓝蓝的忧愁 搬进我的生活
越想放手越是紧握 越往前走越是回头
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

我没用 多没用 我推开窗户思念一直推不走
我在梦里掉了一个梦 谁捡到告诉我还给我 别没收
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

Haha.. this song really portrays the 'stupidity' that someone is still in love in his/her ex. Some would say its stupidity, some would say its loyal or some would say its stubborn... For me, I think that there isn't harm for being in loving with that someone quietly... Loving someone doesnt mean must have him/her. It comes from the heart, wishes that someone always be in the environment filled with happiness... of coz it is undeniable that things changes and people must look forward and move on with life. And there isnt any wrong for still loving that someone quietly and hoping that he/she leads a happy life AND moving on with your own life.

老夫老妻

我能為你試著聊星座 妳卻不肯陪我看棒球
從前會計較誰付出的多 現在卻變成樂在其中
時間的手 牽著我們慢慢走
終於找到和諧的節奏
我不再浪漫 妳也不再溫柔
卻能異口同聲的說想吃些什麼
貼心的小動作 盡在不言中
默契隨著時間更深厚
原來老夫老妻真不錯

我做的飯妳嫌西嫌東 妳開車時換我變囉唆
生活中的芝麻和綠豆 淡是淡些回味卻無窮
時間的手 牽著我們往哪走
走到哪裡都有妳陪我
我不在浪漫 妳也不在溫柔
卻能同時歡呼說今晚星星好多
很幸福的感受 盡在不言中
白頭髮的情人和朋友
原來老夫老妻真不錯

我少了擁抱 妳也少了撒嬌
卻能成為彼此最堅定的依靠
再牽著妳的手 少了點悸動
卻多了份安心和感動
原來老夫老妻真不錯

This song encourages and tells us the story of being in love and grow old with your partner. It is so true. It is like the art of maintaining your relationship. Something everyone is looking forward to.

说好的幸福呢

周杰伦 《说好的幸福呢》

你的绘画凌乱着.
　　在这个时刻.
　　我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
　　甜蜜散乱了.

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了倦了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐


Have you ever engaged in a relationship ? Have you made promises which you can't keep ? Or have you heard promises which have not been kept by that someone ?

Whenever a promise is made during relationship, it is up to you to trust it or not. And it is up to you on how much to trust and how much hope you put on it. I am sure when you are deeply in love, you will trust and believe whatever he/she said. But you must bear in mind that when love is gone, promises gone with the wind as well. How many people can keep their promises after the relationship ended ? Perhaps only those who are still deeply in love with that someone , but events had forced the break up. Or those who are naive enough to think so. But who is there to judge whether it is a waste of time for keeping those promises ?

不够成熟

詞：詹予萱　　曲：詹予萱/蔡政勳
我想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到 你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念 你走以後

離開 難道真的是解脫
難道 真的要事過境遷了以後才懂

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭 決不讓眼淚往下流

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過 笑著和你揮揮手

如果有一天 我們有緣再見
你會不會想起 說過的 永遠

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭 決不讓眼淚往下流

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過 笑著和你揮揮手

Hope and dreams...

Finally, after weeks and weeks of sleepless nights... I have handed in my assignment today! First time in my college life that I was not rushing for any last minute jobs on the assignment. I felt relieved! After the burden was off my shoulders, I felt super duper tired...

I know assignment is just a tiny little thing compared with those challenges waiting for me outside. But recent events made me tired physically and mentally. I am not putting any blame on anyone, but just myself. It is because I have chosen this path myself and ruined it with my own bare hands. Now, i have to face the consequences. It is overwhelming. I hope I can handle it well.

Lately, i had lots of dreams related to these recent events. Dreams that gave me hope, dreams that left me with a wet pillow in the morning, dreams that messed up my bedsheets, dreams that left me felt more exhausted... ( Nope, it isn't wet dreams ) Dreams, are often your wants, future, past or perhaps a clue/tips from God. It might happen in the future, it might show you your path, it might be just what you wish to happen... Nobody knows... Nobody knows... Nobody knows...

There are some things which you lose it, you will lose it forever. The only time that you see it coming back to you its when you are dreaming. Dreams that gave you hope. Which it will hurt you more when awaken from it, back to reality that you have lose it forever. It will not be yours anymore. It will not be the same anymore.

The magical season, Xmas which filled with miracles is here once again. This time, I hope that my dream will come true to me. All I want is just this dream to come true. Please...

人世间最痛苦的事

曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，
我没有珍惜，
等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，
人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。
如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，
我会对那个他说三个字：我爱你。
如果非要在这份爱上加上一个期限，
我希望是……
一万年！

我用所有报答爱

recently i 've watched the move - the banquet 夜宴 again.. awesome movie.. okok... perhaps not really awesome.. but i like the story.. so meaningful... everything they did was all because of love.. and the song is soooo nice.... awww.. i fell in love with it again.. lol..

我用所有报答爱
演唱：张靓颖
作曲：谭盾
作词：范学宜
钢琴：郎朗
电影《夜宴》 片尾曲

只为一支歌
血染红寂寞
只为一场梦
摔碎了山河
只为一颗心
爱到分离才相遇
只为一滴泪
模糊了恩仇
我用所有报答爱
你却不回来
岁月……从此一刀两段
永不见风雨
风雨……风雨…

Dream

This morning, i had a dream.. okok.. perhaps a few.. but i only remember one... so this is what i dream of :

I was at this village, overlooking some bulls and farmers at work. All of a sudden, raging flood came and swept all the bulls and farmers... bulls trying to run.. then i also started to run.. but too late.. the flood caught me. A bull was near me, so i grab hold on him. Hanging on to him for my dear life. I saw a few giraffe head... they were walking in the flood -.-" then the bull i was holding on became a elephant O.o i could recognise the back! coz i rode an elephant before in thailand. LOL. Then he was struggling, trying to get me off. I felt that i was drowning. But then i managed to hold on to him and got back on. -n-

i am a bit superstitious :x so i went online and search for dream interpretations.. haha.. so this is what i got :

Flood
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging flood, then it represents emotional issues and tension. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension.

Village
To dream that you are in a village, represents restrictions. It may also indicate that you are unsophisticated, but well-balanced. Alternatively, it signifies community, simplicity, and tradition.

Elephant
To see an elephant in your dream, indicates that you need to be more patient or more understanding of others. Or perhaps there is a memory that you are holding on to for too long. You need to let go of the past. The elephant is also a symbol of power, strength, faithfulness and intellect. Alternatively, the elephant's introverted personality may be a reflection of your own personality.

To dream that you are riding an elephant, indicates that you are in control of your unconscious and aspects that you once were afraid of.

Bull
To see a bull in your dream, symbolizes stubbornness, strong will, strength, and power. The dream may be telling you that it is time to take a stand and be more assertive. Alternatively, the bull indicates a rich, prosperous, and abundant life. Consider the pun, "being bull-headed". May be you need to show a little compromise in a situation.

Giraffe
To see a giraffe in your dream, suggests that you need to consider the overall picture. Take a broader view on your life and where it is headed.

Drowning
To dream that you are drowning, signifies that you are overwhelmed by emotions or repressed issues that is coming back to haunt you. You may be proceeding too quickly in trying to discover your unconscious thoughts. If you drown to death, your relationship will fail or you will suffer major business losses. If your survive the drowning, then your relationship will be rescued by some intervention. You will rise to a higher position of wealth and honor.

So i guess it it trying to tell me something.. LOL!

重来 - 李圣杰

有多少爱能重来，
多少人愿意等待，
失去之后才明白。
走进回忆的安排，
一幕一幕的对白，
上演我们的未来。
期待，原来是一种伤害，
深爱的人已离开。
是我不该忽略你给我的爱。
现在我只想回到最初的时候，
不愿让你再泪流，
寂寞时候只有你会陪着我。
现在我只想回到最初的时候，
我知道你还爱着我。
亲爱的你请你握紧我的手。
请你看看我，
真的需要你的我，
只要你回头......

'Mask'

People been telling me that wearing a 'mask' and hiding behind it its essential in this crucial world. Last time i would disagree with them about it. I would say that sometimes showing your inner feelings towards others it's okay. There would be arguments and all.......

Now, I would agree with them. Wearing a 'mask' IS essential. Hide all your inner feelings and thoughts. Hide whatever you got behind that 'mask' and wear a 'robe' if possible. Don't show others what is your Power Card / Last Card / watever card you call it.. lol... Don't show your desperation either. In the Law of Bargaining - NEVER show that you are desperate! Showing others and telling others about you being sad and crying in front of them its a form of stupidity and weakness.It shows that you are weak. You would not want that to happen as you grow older.

I am not the only one who thinks so. It won't be surprised that 80% of the adult population out there is wearing a 'mask' everyday. Why ? In this crucial world, especially adults in the business world, working world and relationship, nobody wants to get hurt. Showing too much of your inner thoughts and feelings tends to be a disadvantage to you. If they have to, people will tend to hide away, fake their smile and fake the things they say. If not, you will be the one who have to bear the consequences.

Run Away~

There are times when you just want to be alone...
no matter how talkative and active you are...
you still want to be alone...
its like a phase...
all of a sudden..
you just want to run and hide...
run far far away from wherever you are..
just want to run away to somewhere where nobody knows you..
a place where you would not need to worry about things..
just run far far away from people that you know.. family, frenz, colleague etc.
There are no rational reasons behind it..
you just want to run away...
You just want to be away from people...
Want some peace.. Some quiet time...
Its so tiring... you just want to relax...

I am feeling so... and i am not alone.. there are a few people around me who feels the same too.. what happened ? nobody knows.. Reason? nobody knows either... Don't ask me.. i don't know why i am feeling it also... >.<"

Watch Your Lips and Mouth

Recently, a lot of things happened... It made me think a lot. We shouldn't take things for granted. Appreciate what you have because you might lose it the very next moment. You wont know what will happen in the future. Do your best Now. Learn from Your past experience. Work for a Better Future. i Finally understand this idiom or watever you call it.. LOL!

That day i saw the front page of a newspaper : Watch your Mouth and Lips. Although i did not read about the article, but it got me thinking. That got me realize about some mistakes i have done. Haiz.. too late.. i made mistakes which i regretted a lot !!! Basically what i am trying to say in this blog is that, Watch what you say... The hardest and most complicated subject to learn in this life i think would be the art of communication between people. Master it and you will benefit from it A LOT! Fail it and you will face problems in life, especially when you get older and come out to work.

I have been thinking about these to help me improve and grow from my mistakes...

1. What....
What are you going to say ?
Trying to please your boss...
i. 'Boss! You look so pretty today! ' ( Correct )
ii 'Boss! You have small boobs! ' ( Wrong )

2. Who...
Who are you saying it to ?
Trying to compliment...
i. ' Babe! you have the nicest boobs i have ever seen! ' ( Correct )
ii. ' Dude ! you have the nicest boobs i have ever seen! ' ( Wrong )

3. Where...
Where are you saying it ?
i At a party ' AWESOME!!! Lets Rock and Roll! ' ( Correct )
ii At a church service ' AWESOME!!! Lets Rock and Roll! ' ( Wrong )

4. When...
When are you saying it ?
i. ' Its delicious! ' When you are eating at a restaurant ( Correct )
ii. ' Its delicious! ' When you are shitting in da toilet ( Wrong )

5. Why...
Why are you saying it ?
i. ' You have a nice body ! ' to show compliment ( Correct )
ii ' You have a nice body ! ' to show sarcastism ( Wrong )

6. How...
How are you saying it ?
i ' I think you have a drip of sauce on your shirt that you might want to clean it ' ( Correct )
ii ' Don't you know how to eat ?! Sauce are all over your shirt ! ' ( Wrong )

Think twice before you speak next time... you might hurt someone and you might regret about it. It might get you a promotion or a lover or a new house or car ^.^ Saying the right thing at the right time at the right place to the right person with the right way and right reason is the thing you need to learn !

Grow Not Change

Once, someone told me that everything changes, but human does not change. Why? because we grow. Two years back, i had an opportunity to read an awesome book called ' Who Moved My Cheese ? '. For those who are fond of reading, i am sure you would have read it, or at least know about this book. Anyway, i am not going into details about this book. All i just want to say its just that this book shows me how does changes in our life affect us and how we deal with it.

Whatever happens, good, bad, happy, sad, big, small etc. we must appreciate it. No matter what. Accept it. Look through it. Look around it. Think about it for a moment or two. Adapt to its changes. Pack up your feelings and whatever you can learned from it and then move on. For better or worse, at least you had tried before.

By moving on, it means that you are accepting the fact of what had changed. One thing which i need to clarify and emphasize here : moving on doesnt only mean that you are changing whatever you have. It can also mean that you grow from what you have experienced. It isnt always the option to just leave the thing for a better one. Especially in relationship. Although it is always the best to just move on and find another who will be a better ( or worse ) partner. But then it doesnt mean that you CANT stick with the current one.

Hhhmmm.. let me explain further on this issue. What would be better is that if you can grow from your mistakes and attitudes. CHANGE to become better. Not only for yourself nor your partner but for everyone else either. It is always da best for someone to grow to become a better person. For example, if you have broken up in a relationship due to your bad temper or you are being a big spender, GROW up dude! change that bad habit of yours ! GROW up and become more mature and you would start to think about it. Think about your bad habits. Then you will start to realise things. And make changes to it. To become a better person. And who knows that your Ex partner will love you back ? Or your Boss will promote you instead of firing you ?

Emo~

Emo~~~~~

I am a guy who is full of emotions. In other words, i am an emotional guy and hot tempered. Just a simple little thing can make me laugh out loud, cry the next second, throw tantrum the next moment. Sometimes it benefits me but most of the time it harms me and brings lots of problems & troubles to me.

Normally the word 'emotional' is being labeled on females and people with artistic character. You seldom hear that a guy is emotional. It is because guys tend to keep all their emotions to themselves, showing their emotions toward others portray the image that they are weak. Nowadays, with globalization and competitions, people tend to be more stressful just to make a living. Thus, their emotions tend to be like a roller coaster. It changes very fast, going very high at this moment, very low another moment. There are also people who are born with this personality, aka ME!

It isn't wrong to have such a personality. It is one of the criteria that makes you YOU! Standing out from others, differentiate from others. Although it is always seen as a negative aspect, but whatever negative, there will always be something positive behind it. Just like the Ying Yang Theory. Don't blame yourself for having such a behaviour. Well, if you know that it is till the state that harms you, just learn how to control it. Facing your own weakness is better than running away from it.

I am just going to share some of my ways of controlling my emotions and temper. Keeping it. Making it a smooth ride rather than a roller coaster which scares everyone.
1. Clench my fist as hard as possible and hold my thought and actions. Let all my negative energy and tantrum goes to my fist. well, not to hit anything or anyone. Just clench it. Or perhaps squeeze a stress ball. After my hand ran out of strength, then only I make decisions.
2. just hum or sing a song that comes to my mind. Of cause inside my head, because i do not want everyone to think that i am crazy for bursting out a song in the middle of a conversation or argument. For instance, Winner Takes it All ( Meryl Streep version ) It is FULL of emotions and passions...
3. Think of something else. Mostly about mother nature. To change my focus.

How about you? What would you do when you feel emo ? or your temper is rising?

Argument

Does argument really improve relationship between two party ? Or it cracks the relationship between two party ?

Undoubtedly, argument does bring two party along if it is treated in a good condition with proper emotion and understanding. But it does bring harm in relationship coz when u argue, u are more likely to be more aggressive. And of coz things get worse when someone or something gets too aggressive.

In a relationship, dun care its frenship, couple or family, sometimes an argument might spice up things. But it must not be too aggressive and too often. Argument which happen too often will make two party become tired after some time. very tired... and of coz.. problems will occur.

Cause? ignorance, lack of respect, lack of caring, dun even know it when u are guilty or making a mistake, misunderstanding... u name it.. but in a relationship, does it worth to argue everytime? if dun argue, one party will have to 'eat dead cat' or try to hold back and just smile.. this is life... there are so many ppl out there that their attitude, personality and character crashes with us.. wat we can do? nothing.. to avoid argument and crack in relationship.. just be it.. coz knowing each other and getting along isnt easy...

Sometimes i wonder if i am being too picky and choosy over things? or i am being too dominant and wants everything to be my way? or is it the other party being ignorant ? or the other party that shows no care ? Even if all argument ended with forgive and forget... but arguing too often does bring some effect.. negative effect.. >.<"

Open minded, Positive thinking out of negative things

I have always been judgmental towards other people.. it is good to be judgmental towards others.. but i did too much of it. i tend to complain a lot when these people i met doesnt meet up to my expectations. I will either start to complain about them or criticize them on their behaviour, personality, attitude, background etc.... anything u can think of that gets in my way or does not favour me. yeah.. i know.. i am a pain in the ass... LOL..

Everything is changing everyday, whether u like it or not, realise it or not.. and people tend to grow mentally and physically when the time is right. this time here varies among different people. By meeting the right people/situation/material at the right time, it will tend to strike us in a way that will change our thinking and perhaps behaviour. Mine came when one of my lecturer said ' Why must you be so judgmental ? Why can't you just accept it with an open mind and take in whatever its good for you and leave the rest alone? '

BAMM!!! it struck me! it got me thinking... There are billions of people out there.. i cant just complain and criticise them if they do not favour me... Nobody is perfect.. this includes me.. i am not perfect, so why should i complain and criticise other people? I should accept everyone as it is including their bad and good.. be open minded... this is because there are so much things that I can learn from them due to their background, behaviour, personality, attitude etc.. Nobody is identical in this world.. Even the slightest difference can teach us something useful.

We must always think positive and seek for anything which is positive for us to learn from other people, but not focus on their negative things. Nobody wants to be criticize and being complaint about everyday right? so start looking for these positive things and think positively! Even there are lots of negative things, we must find every positive things out of the negative things..

We must be thankful ...
1. For the husband/wife that snores everynight, because he is at home asleep with me but not with anyone else
2. For the taxes i pay because it means that i am employed
3. For the mess i need to clean up after a party because i am surrounded by frenz
4. For the clotes that fit a little too snug because i have enough to eat
5. For a floor that needs mopping and sweeping because i have a home
6. For all the complains that i hear of the government because i have freedom of speech
7. For the parking spot i find at the far end because i am capable of walking and i am blessed with a vehicle
8. For the noise that i have to bear from my noisy neighbours because i can hear
9. For the pile of laundry and ironing because i have clothes to wear
10. For the weariness and aching of muscles at the end of the day because i am capable of working hard
11. For the alarm clock that goes on every morning because i am ALIVE!
12. For the lousy lecturer i get because i am able to distinguish good and bad + evaluate and analyse things
13. For my other half that nags and grumbles everyday because i am blessed with a beloved that cares me

there are many more u positive things u can get from these negative things.. just be think positively and open minded!

Bored till siao jor......

WAHAHHAHAHHA.. got so bored that i saw this post of my fren... thought it would kill some time.. so i just did the same thing as he did... which he got it from his gf.. LOL!!! so here it goes...

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal (optional).

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What is your first response if you realized that #26 was missing?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? (optional)

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAH... bored till siao jor.. COME HERE and comment !!! ooo.. forgot the magic word and stare...

PLEASE................. *puppy eyes*

Stupiak Driver !

This morning i was traveling at 80 kmph on a highway in KL. Suddenly i saw a car coming from behind. it was tailing me like mad. Due to the reason that my mom is in the car, so i had chose to move aside and let him overtake me.

It was a 2 lane highway and i was on the right lane aka fast lane. So, i looked into my left side mirror and back mirror to double confirm that there isnt any car on my left or there is enough space for me to move into the left lane. When i looked into the mirrors, i saw a car on the left lane. But it was quite some distance away. Approximately 3 cars distance. With the speed i was driving, the distance was enough for me to switch lane. Therefore, i put my signal to the left and started to switch lane.

The bloody fool on the left lane was coming at me at a very high speed! My car its already 3 quarters on the left lane. Instead of stepping on the brake, he pressed on his horn! BLOODY HELL!!! He nearly bang into me, but luckily he didnt. After sounding the horn for about 2 minutes, he took the left turnoff. I was so shocked! Why the hell did he sound the horn ?!

I double confirmed the space and there isnt any car close enough to bang me. i put my signal. and i did not slow down. i travel with the same speed. he was 3 cars behind me when i put my signal and switched lane ! Either he is dreaming or sleeping while driving that he didnt notice me that i had moved onto his lane, OR he must be a bloody fool that doesnt believe in stepping on the brake and letting other people to cut into his lane and slow him down!

In the car, i yelled ' FUCK YOU! '. I guessed he didnt hear that. All i just wanna say is KNNMCBDNSDGNMCCBKNNSSTFUYSBISSHTLN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HORN ME FOR WHAT!? rewind the bloody traffic camera on the highway and you will know that its not my fault ! ( i know there is a few traffice camera on the highway *ngek ngek* )

P/S i get very grumpy and lots of vulgar words and curses while i am driving... *evil grins*

New technology - robot skin

Recently, i heard a news report on a newly developed technology - Robot Skin. This technology is developed by a team of researchers in Japan. They have developed it to replaced the cold metal robot skin in order to help with the more lifelike robot which will be used not far in the future. Robots will be used to replaced workers that deal with dangerous jobs and daily chores.

Its artificial skin its made out of elastic silicon and firm urethane. There are numerous small hexagonal indentations etched into the urethane epidermis to give it a very realistic texture. It appears to be very similiar to the human skin in terms of touch and appearance. It is very soft and huggable like the human skin. Perhaps it is much softer than the human skin. There are also a number of sensors to allow the robot skin to react like human skin. This includes the flutters of the eyelids, chest movements due to breathing and other unconscious human movement.

Other than that, there are also a full body sensate skin that consists of 3 sensors - electricity field, temperature and pressure. The electricity field sensor allows the robot to notice any electricity leakage at home or at the factory. If there is any dangerous events or electricity leakage, the robot will be able to warn others or turn off the switch to avoid any further harm. Besides, the temperature sensor provides the robot the ability to feel temperature changes for the things they touch and also the environment. For example, robots that is used for baby sitting need the temperature sensor to feel the baby's temperature if its ill. The robot also needs it to test the bathing water or milk bottle temperature. As for the pressure sensor, the robot will be needing it to handle fragile things such as eggs, glasswares and babies as gently as possible. It will also be used to carry people gently and without injuring people as they are held.

The technology is getting more advance as the day passes. Will the development of robots bring fortune or disaster to the human kind? Nobody knows the answer. No doubt that the robot can help humans in many fields especially dangerous jobs and daily chores. But they are making humans much more lazy than now. The laziness in human nowadays have reached a very dangerous level. Plus, leaders of countries might use robots to declare war to conquer the world. Fortune or disaster?

Fireworks!!

i wanna go to see the Malaysia International Fireworks Competition!!! ARGH.... but its too far... at putrajaya... haiz... and jam too.. anyone wanna fetch me there? :X

The website..

病从口入，祸从口出

病从口入，祸从口出.....
Illness finds its way in by the mouth, careless talk makes trouble...

>.<" I always face this trouble because i always tend to talk faster than my brain works... or should i say that i always talk without using my brains... aiks... i always thought that people may think the same as me.. but then, it turns out not as so... i always treats is as a joke. however, not everyone sees it like that.. i have learnt that everything isnt how we see it onli.. there are diff dimension and sides to it.. what we see isnt what they see..

This is why i always get into trouble.. i always talk non stop.. teasing people.. and treat it as a joke.. this is what makes me get into trouble often.. no doubt it might entertain other ppl to a certain extend.. however.. i am making fun on someone's pain or unfortunate.. i din think about how they would feel.. no respect to them...

i always thought that ppl buwee me when they treat me harshly and tease me and make fun of me.. i feel sad about it.. i always complain about it.. but never do i ever thought that it is what i do to other ppl as well >.<" haiz... after all these.. i feel bad and guilty.. i hope that everyone out there forgive me for this.. i will improve on this... ^.^ hope that it isnt too late...

ARGGGHHHHH

It is really really really hard to make decisions... especially when it comes to things that might change your whole life. I am caught between two choices... I really really really do not know how to choose.. >.<" I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concentrate... Am i expecting too much ? do I really know what i want ? If only i could answer these questions......... HAIZZZZZZZzzzz...


' like the job u work, not work the job u like '

' beggars can't be choosers '

' it's better to love the one that loves u more than you do, rather than love the one that doesnt love you '

' 我只在乎曾经拥有，不在乎天长地久 ' -> I cared about only once had, did not care about for ever and ever..

' 虽然轰轰烈烈的爱让人觉得很回味和难忘，可是细水长流的爱，才能让人刻苦铭心...' ->Although the imposing love lets the human think it's unforgettable, but the love that is well maintained and long lasting, can let the human be unforgettably engraved on one's mind assiduously..

面对一份真情，谁又能轻易舍弃。情深为谁，守候为谁，等待为谁，谁是谁的谁？-> Facing true feelings, who can discard easily. Affectionate for who, waits for who, who is whose who?

All these.... really messed my mind up.. i don't even know what to do and which to follow.. AIKS.. this is one of the time when too many advices and theories kill me.. >.<"

I must really learn to let go~ if not i can't accept and try this one in front of me....

Letting go......

When you learn to let go, it's time for you to pick up something new or better ^.^
Letting go isn't giving up, it's just preparing for a better future / grabbing hold of opportunities ^.^

If you are grabbing hold to a rusty bar of steel, and there is a bar of gold on the floor. What would you do ? Very simple, just get rid of the rusty steel bar by letting it go in order to grab the gold bar. Well, only if you want to grab hold to something better ^.^ If your choice is to hold on to whatever you have and let the opportunity slides away, then you can hold on to your rusty steel bar.

I am not saying that letting go something is giving up on it or showing that you are weak. Perhaps the timing isn't right to just hold on to that something/someone. If it's really hard getting a grip at the thing/someone, perhaps letting go it's a better choice. By letting go, you will be open to wider/better options. By letting go, you will be able to give yourself more time and effort to improve yourself to suit that something/someone. There is a saying about someone slowing down to rest isn't stopping the journey, he is just preparing for a much tougher road ahead. By looking at the situation, we should be able to identify whether its good to hold on to something/someone or not. If you can't try to step back and take a good look at the whole picture. Then you will have a clearer view of what you want and what suits you best.

By letting you go now, i am not giving up on you. I am just resting and preparing myself for you as i see there is a better future for the both of us if i let you go now. I will awe you in amazement when the time comes and make you to want, need and choose me without a second thought. ^.^

Attention Craver...

I like attentions... of coz good ones... but not the embarrassing ones.. lol... a lot of ppl would do a lot of things just to get attentions.. well.. sometimes i do.. this is something bad.. its how you look at it though...

Its good to attract attention if you know what you are doing and its giving benefits to others as well.. Its annoying to be trying to grab attentions if its overdone.. sometimes i did that.. and get a lot of hatred towards me.. lol..

i love being the centre of attention.. it makes me feel that i am so important.. so smart and nice.. :x the feeling is awesome ! hhmmm.. i must get rid of that mindset bcoz lately its killing me.. bringing a lot of bad things towards me.. haha.. >.<" well.. i must learn when to be the centre of attention.. and when not to.. by saying at the right time and right things.. :)

i like attention mainly bcoz i am lack of confident in myself and i hate being lonely.. its true.. sometimes i feel that i am a rubbish that doesnt do anything.. i do not contribute and i dont know ANYTHING at all!! i dont like to eat alone, watch movies alone.. i rather starve myself or sleep at home than doing these two things alone.. lol.. but i enjoy sitting at some cafe alone sipping coffee and reading books or online.. hhmmm.. perhaps its a form of attention craving too.. LOL!

Random Thoughts...

Sometimes. i just felt that there are somethings in this world that you can only dream of. the higher the expectation the greater the disappointment.. hhmm.. perhaps i sound a bit of a pessimist here.. but isnt it true ?

There are things on this earth that you DESIRE to have... but how many will achieve such desires ? nobody knows... i cant say that the possibilities are none.. but the possibilities are definitely low when it comes to these things. for examples : people desire for a model-looking other half with a super duper good personality.. people desire to be Donald Trump.. people desire to be Thomas Edison... people desire to be as rich as Bill Gates.. but then.. how many model-looking with a super duper good personality there are in this world ? How many no.1 businessman in da US are there ? How many great inventors are there ? How many No.1 richest guy on earth are there ?!?!?!?!

We often set our visions as high as it is.. i read somewhere before that visions are supposed to be set at an achievable stage. Not too far till it is impossible.. We often dream o having those things.. being these peoples... but who knows if they ever wish to be you ? or someone else who wish to be you when in the same time you wish to be someone else ?! Take for example, when you look for a husband... you desire someone with a model features outlook.. with warm smile and dimples.. watery eyes.. big broad strong arms.. tight abs... sings well, plays instruments, knowledgeable, smart, rich, caring, sweet, funny etc etc... its nice to meet and have such a guy as ur husband... but then... how many can have it ? often, someone you like and fall for and suit you da most... doesnt possess so many qualities that yo have set... there is a chinese saying which says it '最适合你的可能不是最贵或最美的，而是那个让你觉得最开心舒适的'..

All i am saying is that.. you must appreciate what you have and who is there around you that really cares you and love you.. once the chance has passed... there isnt much you can do about it.. And perhaps that someone you trying to woo wants all these qualities.. but u know you are not near that.. dont give up.. give it a try... try your best.. take your most sincere and loving heart out.. you wont know what you will get in return.. just try... :)

Flu and Cold

Gosh! Recently, the weather is killing ! It has turned crazy !!! Day time super duper hot, but during the night, it's freezing due to raining... Due to this factor and my weak body, i am down with cold AGAIN! I hate it when i am caught with cold.. ARGHHHhhhhhh.... everyone who knows me well and long enough would know that i am ALWAYS down with cold.. :P

If you ask 10 people ( non medic ) , i think 8 of them wouldnt know the difference between cold and flu. Or perhaps its just me who doesnt know ? hhmmmm.. lol... well.. finally i made it clear.. it's both different sickness but it has similar symptoms.

They are both cause by different viruses. Generally, flu is worse than cold. People who caught flu will have fever, body aches, extreme tiredness and sometimes dry cough and sore throat. Where as people who caught cold, they would have a runny or stuffy nose only.

Here is a table to differentiate it :

Symptoms	Flu	Cold
Appetite	Decreased	Normal
Tiredness	Severe	Mild
Onset of illness	Sudden	Slow
Fever	High	Mild or No
Headache	Yes	No
Muscles	Ache	Normal
Chills	Yes	No

hhmmm.. hope it helps.. although its not very detailed... :P just help to differentiate it.. Flu and cold should be treated with plenty of fluids and rest.. :)

ATM n PIN

Bastard : Hey Bitch, let's go or lunch together !
Bitch : Ok Bastard! But where ?
Bastard : The 'Have Sex' Cafe just around the corner.
Bitch : Sounds good but i need to go to the ATM machine to get some money first.
Bastard : Okay~!

*At the ATM*

Bitch : SHIT! I forgot my PIN number !
Bastard : Hhhmmmm.. calm down and try this number '114967'
Bitch : Hey! It works! damn you! how would you know my PIN number?!

okokokokok.. its a super super super lame conversation up there.. the main point is.....
i want to bring up the issue about some common mistakes most people do. 1st of all, i would like to share with you the full name for ATM and PIN :

ATM : Automated Teller Machine
PIN : Personal Identification Number

the mistake is that, most people would like to say 'ATM machine' and 'PIN number'. this is a very wrong thing to do. It is because the 'M' in 'ATM' means MACHINE. By saying 'ATM machine' it means Automated Teller Machine machine. its repeated ! same goes for 'PIN number'. the 'N' in 'PIN' means NUMBER. By saying 'PIN number' means Personal Identification Number number. Its repeated AGAIN!

of co there are still others.. but i onli can think of this two.. :X

Dream

Just a pic of the recent me...

After two months of war with the assignments and exams, i am back into BLOGGING again ! woo hoo!!! *wonders how long it will last me again* Recently i have picked up a quite expensive sport.. which is rock climbing.. well of cause, i went for the indoor rock climbing @ Camp 5, 1 Utama...

It is very interesting and exciting. It is all based on trust and believe. Just like how you would live your life. It's all about trust and believe :) just a single rope which holds you and your partner. You have to trust your partner on your life there. Vice versa.Team work comes in as well... Believe is when you are so exhausted, and you feel like quitting it, then your partner or fren yell ' Go on! you can do it ! ' which it works! you want to push yourself to the limit, and beyond that limit... climb till the top.. the feeling when you reach at the top its unbelievable !

Ok.. enough for the rock climbing thing. This morning, i dream of something really really really horrifying. Have you ever tried so hard to reach for something or goal in life, and in the last minute, you failed ? I know I should be appreciate the process and not care about the result. But, still, there is still this sadness and guilt in you that you cant reach that goal / something. Actually i dream of this............

i saw this 'something' i wanted so badly at the top of the cliff. At 1st, it is so hard to reach as it is so far. then without thinking or using any tools, i went and climb the cliff. Which it doesnt makes sense if i went to put on safety tools and all, it's a dream after all. I climb and climb.. its so tiring.. so so so tiring. i wanted to give up. but i heard someone yelling ' Go on! you can do it ! I support you! ' instantly i knew who was that. i can recognise that voice. haha.. then i went on and on. When i was almost at the top, its just so near that i can touch the 'something' i wanted.. suddenly i saw that someone beside me came and wanted to grab that 'something' away from me. i was so terrified! i use all my strength to jump up onto the cliff to get that 'something'.. the feeling was so nice when i got it.. OMG.. i felt so happy!! finally it is MINE!!!!

suddenly, i woke up... DAMN! the feeling of sadness seeps into me.... again.... i just remembered that last night the news of that 'something' is unable to be owned/achieved by me.. the dream its just something in my subconscious mind that shows how i want it to be....

bday!!!

GUYS! My BirthDay is this SUNDAY! 13th APRIL!!!!!!

remember ya... ngek ngek..

The word : FUCK

Few days back, i have changed my msn title to 'Desmond - I'm Fucked Up'... this has startled quite a bit of people as i was getting messages like ' who fuck you?' or 'so you are not virgin anymore?'... my reaction was like What The Fuck!? lol... i was surprised with their responses. I think they might have misunderstood my saying of 'I'm Fucked Up' with 'I Got Fucked'... so this triggers me to teach you guys a lesson....

Please leave this page if you are offended by the word FUCK or you are under the age of 18. thanks.. i wont hold any responsibility against those who had trauma or whatever u have after reading this.

The word i am teaching today is : FUCK
It is a vulgar slang. It means that to engage in sexual intercourse.

1. Act as Verb
example : Alvin fucks Dessie.
2. Act as Noun
example : Dessie is a fine fuck.
3. Act as Adjective
example : Desmond is fucking handsome.
4. Shows ignorance
example : Fuck if I know.
5. Shows trouble
example : I guess I am fuck now
6. Shows aggression
example : Fuck you!
7. Shows displeased
example : What the fuck is wrong with you?
8. Shows difficulty
example : I can't understand this fucking word
9. Shows incompetence
example : He is a fuck off
10. Shows suspicion
example : What the fuck you doing?
11. Shows enjoyment
example : I had a fucking time
12. Shows as a request
example : Get the fuck out of here!
13. Shows hostility
example : I am going to knock your fucking head off!
14. Shows greeting
example : How the fuck are you ?
15. Shows apathy
example : Who gives a fuck ?

Phrasal Words
Fuck off
1. Angry dismissal
example : Get the fuck off my face!
2. spend time idly
example : I am just fucking off around the house
3. to masturbate
example : I am fucking off while watching porno

Fuck over
1. to treat unfairly : take advantage of
example : He fucked over me in order to get job
2. get over with
example : Get the fuck over with it will ya?

Fuck up
1. to make a big mistake
example : I am fucked up due to the recent assignment
2. to act carelessly
example : I had fucked up in that exam

I am not a pro in it... just to tell what i know only. hehe.. dont scold me oh... :)

Gained Weight

Today i was at the hospital for my dad's usual check up... damn it was so boring... poor ma.. what to do.. have to go to the Government Hospital for it.. haiz... wait lo.. still got what.. i was there from 7am till 2pm! this is consider as fast.. can you believe it ?! so pls!!! if you have extra money, pls save it up or buy insurance for your medical expenses next time.. *touch wood* but the thing is that its in our life cycle.. being ill.. hehe.. so you are just preparing for it.. so next time when you need the money, you have it already in your acc to go for private hospital.. no long queue, no long hours of waiting, no bad services, no bitter faces, no smelly toilets.... ARGH! lol.

so so so.. the thing is that, i was so bored that i was walking around the hospital. then i saw a weighing machine.. or should it be weighing scale ? so i just hop on to it.. coz for the past 7 years, my weight (and height) remains the same... 50KG 160CM... so i wasnt scared or anything.. but then once i was on the damn thing! i saw the figure went ' 60!!!' OMG!!!!! i couldnt believe it!!!! i just jump off the thing n start to give myself lots of excuses.. like the bottle i am carrying, the books i am holding , the shit i was suppose to let go that morning etc etc etc.. so when i came back.. i weigh again.. 55KG!!! damn damn damn... i have grown FATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from now on, i am going on a diet! vegetarian diet and lots of exercises.. i hope i can lose that spare tyre and extra weight i just gained.. ggrrrr....

Before : 50KG / After : 55KG

Five Fucks

Just after some complains from my fren bout relationships.. n i heard of it a lot..

Fuck those who cheats on their other half!
Fuck those who still controls the other party even after break up!
Fuck those who stops other people from falling in love or getting to know the ex!
Fuck those who does not even cherish and appreciate what he/she has and complains that he/she is lonely and nobody cares bout them
Fuck those who revenge on their ex with dirty plans n things! ( the only revenge which is allowed is to live a better life than your ex and during the time you and your ex were together, this is what i call a super nice revenge if u insist on one)

I know a lot of people might hate me.. coz i know a lot of people who does the 5 things i mentioned.. i know your own life and you have your own right to live it however you want. anyway, if you are doing so, just don't freaking come near to me to have those things done on me! thanks... and in the end... may KARMA comes back to u ^.^

Put Your Head On My Shoulder ~

Put your head on my shoulders
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight
Show me that you love me too.

Put your lips next to mine, dear
Won't you kiss me once, baby
Just a kiss good-night
Maybe you and I will fall in love.

Some people say that love's a game
A game you just can't win.
If there's a way
I'll find it some day
And then this fool will rush in.

Put your head on my shoulder
Whisper in my ear baby
Words I want to hear tell me
Tell me that you love me too.

Accidents

This year, fortune teller foretells that people who are born in the Dragon Year aka Dragons are prone to accident. Erm... its like the chances of meeting up with an accident is higher than others. These accidents not only referring to car accidents but to all kind of accidents. So, Dragons... watch out and be careful! Drive safely ans slowly... its not wrong to be slow.. just be patience this year! Superstitious? LOL... Up to you to believe it or not.. but i do.. :P

My fren, Bon met with an car accident 2 days ago. Damn he was damn lucky. Reason?
1. the guy he bumped into could have died or injured severely if Bon did not turn the car away
2. the guy is someone of the patience and soft type (well mannered and no foul languages or cursing)
3. Bon would have died/ injured severely if the air bag did not pop up

the pic below is wat leftover of his car...


Frankly speaking, its the other guy's fault. LOL.. not to say that i am helping my fren. but its true. well.. this is Bon's 3rd accident in 2008. God, if you are there, pls smack Bon to make him realise that driving fast is BAD! *evil grins* well.. luckily both of them are not injured. just some bruises here and there. Adding this accident to my list, which i do not wish to count(not a pleasant one) this would be the 12th accident i heard of this year. 10 of them are Dragons n i m one of them :( still a stupid dent on the left side of my car ...

Moral of the story ? drive safely! let it be slow as long as it is safe. Biarkan lambat asalkan selamat ^.^ and be careful when you guys do anything too! esp Dragons!!! oh ya.. the fortune teller says that to minimize the risk, one can do more charity or donation work. Esp blood donation :)

Sweat...

Continuing from my previous post.. hhmmm.. tat day i just found out something extraordinary about me.. LOL..

okok.. this is right after i played badminton.. my frenz n i were sitting down resting.. sweating like a pig of coz.. n i SUCK at playing badminton.. LOL.. well, at least i m trying hard n enjoying the process although being laughed at.. hehe.. so... below is the conversation..

Fren A : Desmond, u look nice when u sweat hor?
Me : *puzzled* Har?
Fren B : What do u mean by that ?
Me : Yaloh.. sweat oso can look nice?
Fren A : Yeah.. Havent u seen before ppl hu look sexy n seductive when they sweat? n some ppl just look nice when they sweat..
Fren B : *evil grins* yeah.. sexy n seductive....
Me : Not Porn Stars u bitch!

hhmmm.. somehow i partially agree with her that some ppl do look nice when they sweat.. when some ppl sweat.. they have this sweaty look.. their face will be redder n their hair wud be wet till a certain level.. plus... the sense of sweat will attract n intrigues the hormon in ppl's body to attract n intrigue other ppl's hormon.... hhmmm.. y do u think perfume can attract ppl? not bcoz they smell nice but they include human sweat in it! its true.. LOL..


So... seriously.. do i look hot n sexy n seductive when i m wet n sweaty ? hehe...

Window

People say that your eyes is the window to your soul, 眼睛是灵魂之窗...... it believe it is... watever it is, one look at the eyes will noe wat he is thinking.. lies, happy, grumpy, sad, angry.. the eyes will have the answer to it... it shows emotions.. the inner self..

i once was told by a teacher ( which she read it from somewhere ) that one's personality is like a window... or shud i say the inner self of someone is like a window.. through the 'eyes', we can look at these windows..

the window above show the 4 types of inner self/personality of one..
1. the red one
this is the part where you know that you have and others know it as well... it is very obvious..
2. the blue one
this is the part where you know that you have it, but others do not know about it.. this is perhaps wat u wanna hide from others or just that you havent reveal to anyone yet..
3. the green one
this is the part where you do not know that you have it.. but others know you have it.. it always happen when you blame others or complain about others.. but u do not know you have such criteria as well..( pointing fingers)
4. the yellow one
this is the part where you and others do not know you have it... its perhaps some skills or personality which are hidden in you... it wont blast out till some day some time...

each window will increase or decrease as time goes by.. whether you and others discover it through activities, reading or real life situations... for example, i din noe tat i m such an attention seeker until my fren blasted it out at me... when i think back... WOW.. i m really a attention seeker.. LOL... so this means tat my Green window will decrease and my Red window increase ^.^

have fun and think bout it.. explore it urself.. this is normally associated with the activity where you have to list out wat is ur strength and weakness and compare with wat your frenz think bout it..

In memories of......

Aiks... from my previous post ' 劲歌金曲' aka Jade Solid Gold.. i promised to post some pics of celebrities.. b4 n now pics.. but then... i got a new idea... hhmmm.. today.. Lydia Shum 沈殿霞 aka 肥姐 passed away due to liver cancer.. bad news... haiz... another fav HK celebrity of mine passed away... so in this blog.. i put some of my fav chinese celebrities hu had passed away...


1. Roman Tam 罗文
Nickname : Law Kee 罗基
Date of Birth :16th February 1950
Date of Death : 18th October 2002, died of liver cancer
Renowned works :
小李飞刀，家变，亲情，卡门，始终你最好，狮子山下，满江红...
he also brought up famous celebrities like joey yung容祖儿， ekin chen 郑伊健


2. Theresa Teng 邓丽君
Date of Birth : 29th January 1953
Date of Death : 8th May 1995, died of severe asthma
Renowned works :
her voice is super sweet n soft..
恰似你的温柔,夜来香,月亮代表我的心, 甜蜜蜜, 小城故事, 忘记他, 再见，我的爱人, 但愿人长久, 我只在乎你...


3. James Wong 黄沾
Nickname : jim suk 沾叔
Date of Birth : 21st February 1940
Date of Death : 24th November 2004, died of lung cancer
Renowned works :
狮子山下，上海滩，问我，沧海一声笑，将峻岭，男儿当自强, 梁祝


4. Danny Chan 陈百强
Date of Birth : 7th September 1958
Date of Death : 25th October 1993, died after 17 months in coma
Renowned works :
偏偏喜欢你， 一生何求， 念亲恩，今宵多珍重，相思河畔....


5. Leslie Cheung 张国荣
Nickname : gor gor 哥哥
Date of Birth : 12th September 1956
Date of Death : 1st April 2003, commit suicide
Renowned works :
英雄本色, 胭脂扣，阿飞正传，纵横四海，霸王别姬，花田喜事，金枝玉叶，夜半歌声，春光乍泄，左右手，追，沉默是金，风再起时，红颜白发，深情相拥...


6. Anita Mui 梅艳芳
Nickname ： ah mui 阿梅，mui jie 梅姐,hundred style queen of pop百变天后
Date of Birth : 10th October 1963
Date of Death : 30th December 2003, died of cervical cancer
Renowned works :
似水流年 ,壞女孩,妖女 , 烈焰紅唇, 淑女, 變 , 皇者之風 , 鏡花水月, 審死官, 東方三俠, 現代豪俠傳, 半生緣鍾無艷, 男歌女唱, 愛君如夢, 男人四十.....




7. Lydia Shum 沈殿霞
nickname : 肥姐/ fat sis.. she is well known for her size, dark rimmed glasses & hair.. n her status in HK entertainment industry, she is known as sis..
date of birth : 21st July 1947
date of death : 19th February 2008
Renowned works :
《富贵逼人》, 《富贵再逼人》,《富贵再三逼人》,《富贵吉祥》...
she is also famous for her art of hosting
things i learned/want to learn from her :
1. her laughter.. i bet everyone who noes a tiny bit bout her or HK entertainment industry would know about her laughs.. she likes to laugh.. smile... no matter wat happen.. she will face it with laughter n strongly.. her laughter brings happiness to others..
2. eat.. despite her condition.. she LOVES to eat.. one of her happiness is to eat eat eat.. :P
3. strong will in living.. even though her condition is bad, she still wanna live on.. her will in living is very strong.. nowadays.. there are a lot of ppl hu wanna die so easily. haiz.. dun treasure wat they have.. tis woman here.. fight so strong just to live.. but.. in the end.. haiz...
4. kind n loving... esp for her daughter n frenz..

haiz..... they were the legends... they are the legends... without them, HK entertainment industry wont be as glamourous as now... they are the best....

8 news..

本文纯属虚构，如有雷同纯属巧合...This article is a sheer fabrication, if has is purely the coincidence identically...

Recently, all news papers have reports on the case of Mr. Chen.... i m kinda bored with it.. aiks.. such a case.. why does it have to be on the newspaper for weeks ?! My opinion and point of view ? Publicity, publicity & publicity!!!

well.. tats one of my point of view though.. If there is such case, what do you think is the benefit of it? Free publicity of cause! furthermore it involves more than 9 celebrities if i am not mistaken! how cool! It is a kind of marketing strategy.. well, they have it in the 'invincible book of marketing' as such tactics are only applied in real life situation and its unethical to practice such tactics. Thus it is not listed in the BOOKs... It can act as a marketing strategy to get free publicity or as a knife to kill off opponents.. I bet you guys still remember the incident where Mr. Chai was caught on tape having sex with a prostitute.. i was wondering, why would someone want to put a camera in a hotel just to have such scenes on tape? and how sure is he that Mr. Chai will do such things at that time and place? i don't want to talk much about that, but by now you would have guess what i have in mind.. implication of the case? Mr. Chai stepped down from his post.. or or or the 3rd reason! its just a sheer pleasure for doing such things, in short, for fun! who knows? perhaps i am wrong, perhaps i am right. nobody knows what is the real reason of all these. Only the person behind it knows exactly the real reason.

besides, i still do not think it is only Mr. Chen and the guys who posted such things fault. If you have to blame, you would have to blame those 'innocent' girls as well! i totally disagree and kind of angry with what Ms. Jill said. being innocent and naive la.. blah blah blah.. talking nonsense there.. no doubt she is brainless or not using her tiny little brain when she said such things. remember last year when she was 'spy' on and took some pics of her 'beautiful back' only?! that time she said she wanted to commit suicide la, this la that la.. cry until the mom oso can't recognise.. that time just a stupid pic of her back want to sue ppl and cry this cry that.. making such a big fuss bout it.. BOK TONG CHING(beg for sympathy) only.. now such thing happen, what she say? naive n innocent.. BULLSHIT!

aiks... please.. if you can't find a excuse.. just keep your mouth shut! it is better to admit it and be quiet about it when you are caught rather than giving silly excuses which doesnt make sense at all. you are just making urself look like a dumb blonde.. hhmmm... okok.. back to topic.. why the girls have to be blamed as well? the reason is clear.. be responsible for what you did. whether you were drunk, naive, stupid, on drugs or what.. you are you.. an adult jor.. what ever things also must be responsible for your act. you cant run to your mommy n cry n think it will be over right? if it is the case, many murderers can just kill people and run to their mommy and cry and say want to commit suicide and get over with the thing without being punish lo...

1st of all, those girls did had sex with Mr. Chen WILLINGLY.. and they are all adult. no news of them reporting that they are being rape.. so it is legal to have sex with your partner... regardless of sex partner or life partner at that moment... chinese have a saying, 你情我愿... it means that both also willing to do so.. so it is not consider as rape or what so ever... hey, you did enjoy that moment right ?! if not why there is that big smile on the face in the pics and after so long also no report of rape? okok.. i sound irresponsible and unethical and not a gentleman for saying such things.. but it is the 21st century.. sex isnt like those days... u wan n willing and i wan n willing.. y not?its just like the theory of demand and supply.. if there is no demand, there wont be supply to reach equilibrium. 2nd, those girls agreed on taking those pics.. oh come on..pls dun say that they did not agree with it.. by the looks on the pic, they look happy! and they can really pose.. some i would say better than porn stars.. hehe.. so y blame Mr. Chen only ?! well... no doubt he is a bad guy and should be punished for taking such pics.. if the girls dun allow and unwilling to, i doubt he can take such 'beautiful' shots.. and have a collection of it.. as for the guys who posted it.. no doubt its just for profitable reasons.. if you want to blame, blame the girls as well!!! punish them as well!! they are in it together...

hhmmm... i do feel a bit sympathy towards a few girls... such as Ms. BooBoo... the wedding being called off... damn it granny or whoever who called it off! its the 21st century! ppl have sex almost everyday n its a normal thing to do so.. some pics showing it makes that girl a slut n unethical ? come on.. u mean that no pics means she is innocent n clean n ethical?　think again! in the such industry.. a lot of ppl rely on relationship to get famous or get higher ranks or promotions n benefits... some even use they sex appeal to do so.. bribery.. heard of it? its taught in books that it is bad.. but in the world out there.. u dare to say no bribery no using of sex appeal n relationship? think again! sorry.. this is the cruel world.. 2nd Mrs. Cheh... have to divorce? aiyoyoyoyo.. the wife have sex with other guys then must divorce... he must be thinking all girls are still virgins when he marry them or he is still living in the century of his dad's good old days..

okok. i think i shall stop here as i think a lot of ppl might hate me for saying such things jor.. haha.. but thats my point of view.. dun like? disagree? i m sorry to say that u can leave. as not everyone on this earth will have the same mindset as u n think like u... dun like then just dun read.. simple..