Perfect person?

" True love won't come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
- Roland gor-

haha.. tis is something i quoted from roland gor.. blek.. i totally agree with the things he says.. often.. i find ppl looking n searching high n low just for tat perfect person.. but the chances of meeting tat someone is just toooooooooooooooooo low.. lol.. i wud say.. they wud often look n fantasize for someone tat is perfect.. so i wonder how many 'perfect person' are there out there waiting for u to be explore?

hhmmm.. then have u ever tot bout urself ? are u the 'perfect person' for tat 'perfect someone' out there?? wat i m trying to say is tat.. instead of looking for tat 'perfect person' out there.. u must learn to become a 'perfect person'.. i noe the phrase tat goes.. nobody is perfect.. n i agree with this.. but not totally.. why? bcoz when u c someone tat is imperfect n appreciate watver he does n cherish it.. n be happy with it.. tat imperfect person will be the perfect person for u.. but then u also wud have to do ur part well.. u must have self confident n be happy.. n appreciate watever n whoever u have.. n cherish them.. n try to do ur best in everything.. find watever tat interest u.. n make the best of it.. then there wud be a glow.. a light .. in u.. tat shines n attracts other ppl to look at u..

so.. tis makes the saying 'relationships are 2 ways communication' worth while.. u must make urself perfect.. n learn to look at others perfectly.. or some wud say tat 'love is blind' .. lol.. other ppl might see him very bad.. but in ur eyes.. he is the perfect one.. n tis is wat makes relationship works... u can say tat tis is love.. but love is something too vague for the human mind n human language to understand.. but it happens everywhere everytime to everyone.. learn to believe... learn to trust.. learn to look at things differently.. learn to be happy.. learn to see someone imperfect perfectly.. ur life wud be a lot happier.. i PROMISE!

Dear Bloggie...

Dear bloggie...

I have lost confident in myself.. again... haiz.. i duno wat i have done is right or wrong... i was lost.. hhmmm.. perhaps.. i made a HUGE leap in front.. which i hurt myself n burden other ppl.. i shud have took small steps.. n step by step.. hehe.. i have tot bout running away from the problem.. i tried.. LOL.. bad me... by avoiding it... hhmmm... suddenly.. it strikes me.. i must be ready n man enuf to handle anything myself.. but not run away from it.. well... watever i run away from now.. i will lose any opportunity tat i might regret in the future.. n it will come back to haunt me perhaps later in my life.. i will have to deal with it once n for all... so i chose to start with telling no lies.. hehe.. i apologies to tat person.. n ask to start to get to noe each other again.. LOL... tis sounds lame.. but it really does help me.. any relationship tat starts with lies will never last long.. honesty is the best policy.. like wat i had said in 'faith n trust'... i will spend as much time as possible with tat person to get to noe tat person well..

hhmmm... but not matter how long u have noe a person.. it doesnt mean tat u noe wat tat person is about.. n wat he is thinking.. perhaps he is confused himself... hhmmm..lets make something simple... someone kisses u n says tat he loves u.. but then the next day he wud tell u tat both of u are just very close frenz n will stay tat forever.. in addition.. he tells u tat he is tackling someone else.. haha.. to me.. i think he is very confused indeed.. perhaps he nid some care but just got confused with his feelings.. tats all.. lol.. in this case.. i dun blame him.. if tis ever happens to me.. LOL.. Roland gor always tells me, ' be optimistic n come wat may' watever happened, happens for a reason... we must stay optimistic n look at the brighter side.. bcoz everything on earth have a few 'faces' .. its just the matter of point of view, the way u look at it... so i chose to be happy n grateful to watever n whoever i have..

hhmmm... sometimes.. i wan someone to listen to me.. someone to talk to me.. but fate.. either the timing is wrong or no one is there to listen to me.. so i often talk to my pets.. it really helps.. they seem to understand i m talking.. n give me responses.. although they did not say anything.. but the cute lil look on their face wud just comfort me.. bcoz i noe someone is listening to me.. hehe.. i noe it sounds crazy.. but i bet someone out there.. someone.. hu had talk with their pets b4 rite?? sometimes when i talk to some animals or tell my frenz bout me talking to my pet.. they wud just think tat i m crazy.. lol.. but i m happy with wat i m doing.. n i enjoy it.. so i dun care watever u think or say.. as long as i m happy n it doesnt harm anyone.. tats wat it matters after all.. rite ?

Nite's out

Last sat.. me n my siblings n cousins went for a dinner nite out.. we went to a restaurant call 'Jake's CHarbroil Steak' .. damn nice.. at Medan Damansara there.. hehe..got another outlet at Starhill.. here is some of the things we ate..

Escargot Bourguignonne - RM 19 for 1/2 dozen..


Mexican Nachos - RM 15.90


Bombay Steak - Aged Sirloin(200gms) - RM 45.90


Aust. Grain-fed Sirloin (200gms) - RM 48.90


Carpet Bag ( Oyster and Bacon etc) - RM 88


Black Pepper Steak - Aged Sirloin(200gms) - RM 45.90


Aust. Grain-fed Beef Fillet of Spare Rib in BBQ Sauce (200gms) - RM 58.90


Aust Grain-fed Porterhouse (min 380 380gms) - RM 69


Cheese Cake - RM 9.90


Country-Style Hot Apple Pie Alamode - RM 8.90


Nutty Pecan Pie Alamode - RM 12.90


Chocolate Fudge Brownie Alamode - RM 8.90

the chef recommendations are Crispy Potato Skin (with crunchy vegetables, smoked beef & cheese) - RM 7.90 and Aust. Wagyu Beef.. prices range from RM162-188
after tat.. we went to Plaza Damas's Chill Bar for a drink.. we notice tat the glass tat they use is not straight.. slightly to another side..


Blue Lagoon which i ordered.. glass is slanting to one side..


those drinks we ordered...

Faith n Trust

faith (fāth)
1. Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.
2. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence.

trust (trʌst)
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2. confident expectation of something; hope.

Hhmm.. these two words.. sounds similiar.. sometiems i dun even noe how to differentiate it.. but the main point of this post is not it.. its about faith n trust..

Yesterday a fren of mine told me about his lover had sex with another one.. ist been on his mind for quite a while.. he tells me tat he duno wat to do..n he still loves his lover.. but he cant accept tat all these way he has been holding on to the faith for not betraying the lover instead the lover betrayed him.. he told me tat he knew it from the msn history.. hhmmm.. so its not from the lover's own mouth.. so i tot to myself.. since he is suffering.. he is asking for my help.. wat shud he do.. i told him tat.. watever i say, its always hard to listen.. it is bcoz he has made up his mind subconsciously.. but in his conscious mind.. he din noe wat he shud do.. so watever i said, he wud give excuses n everything.. saying tat its 1 year relationship.. i said.. so wat if its a one year relationship or 10 year.. its the same.. if u have lost faith n trust in him.. the relationship wont last long.. even if the lover tells him tat he did not have sex..will he believe ?

its all in the faith n trust.. all relationships are based on faith n trust.. we must trust the other half if we wanna maintain a long n good relationship.. in this case, if my fren ady have a subconscious mind tat the lover betrayed him, no matter wat the lover says, he will still thinks tat he betrayed him.. even they got back together, he will onli suffer as tis will be imprinted in his mind forever.. he will be more suspicious of the lover.. n tis will come to a break point sometime in the future.. same goes with the opposite, if he really trust him.. then even after reading the msn history, he wud think its ridiculous tat the lover betrayed him... n even if he ask the lover, watver the lover says.. even if the lover says he relaly betrayed him.. he wud say Nvm.. coz he trust the lover its just an accident or anything.. perhaps its something went wrong between both of them.. so he will try to figure out n fix it.. meanwhile will forgive him.. n have faith in the lover tat the lover will come back to him n be loyal to him.. but tis doesnt apply when the lover goes out hunting for sex etc one after another.. wat is greater than the power of forgiving rather than throwing temper at them.. have u ever tot tat why he went out ? maybe bcoz its something happened between both of u but u dun realise it ? so figure it out n fix it.. no matter wat happen.. it happens for a reason n the cause of it often relates to u, urself..

another incident is wat my lecturer told us.. actually the moral value is not bout trust n faith.. but it oso can be link.. ^_^ the story goes like tis.. there is two acrobats.. they are gonna perform a stunt.. one have to hold a LLLOOOONNNNGGG ladder while the other one climbs on top of it.. without any string attached.. the one tat climb up told the one holding the ladder : ' pls take care of me' actually.. tis stories tells us tat.. no matter wat.. we are on our own.. as long as we do our part.. there wont be anything happen.. if the one tat holds the ladder well.. n the one climbs it without tripping or being too shaky.. there wud not be any problem for the stunt to be completed.. we must play our part n roles well in life.. depending on wat situation.. we just suit to tat situation n play tat role well.. just like lecturers n students.. if the lecturer doesnt teach well, even the students are hardworking, i m sure tat the result is not tat good.. vice versa.. but if the lecturer n students work well.. do their part well.. i msure the resuts wud be better!!

the story of the acrobats oso tells tat we must have faith in each other.. ur partner, ur family, ur frenz.. etc.. if the one climbing the ladder doesnt have faith in the one holding it.. he wud just be too scared to do the stunt or might create problems to it.. vice versa.. hehe.. it goes the same in relationship as i mentioned above n etc.. a lot of things on earth is based on trust n faith.. we all do have faith tat the sun will continue to rise in the morning n the moon will come out at nite.. tis is wat we all have faith n believe in.. we oso have faith n trust tat our frenz will be still with us no matter wat happens.. n they will come n look for us n still remembers us!

so tis is faith n trust.. its very very very important.. oh ya.. from faith n trust , its being confidence n next power, will, dream etc..

Perspective

I have watched the 200 pounds beauty.. hhmm.. quite funny n interesting.. we must not forget who we are.. even in watever situation or with anyone.. we are wat we believe.. we must not forget n abandon our family, fren, personalities etc despite of the job or social life or status.. we are nothing without them.. judging someone by its cover is really really bad.. n its kinda like a norm in this world..

Dun judge a book by its cover, dun judge a man by his cock, dun judge a woman by her boobs.. hhmm.. or make it tis way.. dun judge a cock by its size.. ^_^ watever it is.. never ever judge someone by its appearance.. i noe tat the 1st impression is very important.. but beside tat.. there are other qualities in a person tat we must treasure n seek...

net frenz.. hhmm.. i met a lot of them.. i even met lots of unknown frenz.. in a party or gathering or a function.. it is often the norm tat one reacts n communicate the same way in reality n the net world... but if all due of respect.. it doesnt turn out as wat it is expected.. a lot of ppl reacts differently when they are in front of the pc compare with face to face communication.. One may be fluent n quite daring n 'outgoing' in the net but when u go out with him/her, it is the opposite.. he will be very timid n quiet.. or the other way round.. one may be very quiet on the net.. some might say tat he is kinda arrogant.. but when u meet them in real.. its totally the opposite..he is kinda warm n sweet n friendly.. so dun judge a person onli by looking at one perspective.. for instance.. their way of talking..

another one is by their looks n appearance.. there two kinds of rich man based on appearance.. one is the normal one tat goes 'show off' to everyone tat he is very rich.. n another one is like other citizens.. wear normal clothes..or perhpas dirty n untidy clothes.. y ? to hide the truth of being rich ? too damn lazy or not into fashion? u judge it.. LOL.. in relationship or sometimes for jobs, it is often tat ppl look for looks.. they wan a hensam/cute/pretty/nice body shape bf/gf/staff.. i wonder why.. so does tat mean all the not so good looking ones will be single n unemployed?! tis is ridiculous. but its kinda true.. luckily there are still ppl hu look for the qualities in one..

God is kinda fair to us.. nobody is perfect.. if one is good looking.. sure there is something missing in him.. maybe he is stupid? brainless? or stinks.. hu noes. if one is ugly.. sure he is kinda smart or good at singing or have other skills.. special n good skills... like the chinese saying goes 'big boobs(girls) dun have brains' no offence though.. tats wat the saying goes.. i dun deny tat there are a lot of powerful n great women out there.. so dun u dare to judge someone by looking at one perspective.. u must seek n c the whole person from different angle..

hhmmm.. u must be confident in ur self. the chinese always says 'God bring u to this world for a special reason, u have ur own part to do in this world'.. everyone is useful n attractive in a particular way.. some in a lot of ways.. tis doesnt mean tat u wait for the God to decide everything for u.. u must work hard in watever u do.. to attract ppl n b more useful to the society.. hu noes wat u might do to other ppl with just a simple thing.. believe in urself.. i m sure tat someone agrees with u.. i always believe tat i m cute n smart n attractive in a way.. HAHAHHAHA.. some might agree some might disagree.. HECK CARES!! LOL.. i believe in myself n i do my best in wat ever i do.. n sometiems give more than tat.. n be happy.. tis is life.. ^_^

lecture..

yesterday chatted with R for quite a while.. then i broke down again... i cried.. i felt weak n lonely... of coz.. R is there again.. ask me to be strong.. i m human.. i feel weak too.. but i will try to be strong.. i m not the desmond i used to be.. i nid to be strong to handle everything..

Even the strongest hunk in the world will have his hard times n lonely times.. just tat he din let anyone else see it onli.. we are human.. we have feelings, emotions n ways of thinking.. so its not wrong to be sad or lonely sometiems.. just dun feel tat always.. always think of the positive.. u r allow to be sad n weak n lonely onli if u get over with it n be strong again.. its just like a motivation or stress release for u.. one must handle sadness n loneliness well.. it must be just a flick of mind.. tats it.. then move on with ur life.. be happy .. stay tat way..

The saying goes.. the sun n moon will continue to set n rise no matter how sad or how lonely u are... there is no one in the world who is so powerful n important to make the sun or moon stop rising n setting.. everyone have a life to live on, a road to walk on... its how u wan it to be n how u wan to walk it tat matters.. if u are goin to walk tat road anyway.. my as well u just walk it full of happiness.. Ur own destiny, future, life.. everything is in ur hands.. u r the onli one hu can control n change the way u wan it to be.. choose n lead a happy life which benefits everyone around u.. try to bring them laughter n happiness as u wud wish to be treated the same way..

I was told tat i m very emotional very often.. last time i tot ... wat the hell.. hu cares.. but now.. i think tat it really matters.. as nobody wan to be with someone who is like a bomb tat wud go off at anytime.. so my frenz gets lesser n lesser.. the relationship with my buddies getting futher apart.. hhmm.. tis struck me when i met with someone hu is equally as emotional as i m.. just blow off any moment.. tis moment he might be sweet talking to u. the next he wud just blow at u n start to scream at u.. the feeling sucks.. i hate it.. so tis is wat they say 'u attract those who are same as u' .. i realise the importance of frenship lately n keep wondering why everyone is leaving me or just i cant get someone sincere enuf.. until i met this guy.. he is a good guy actually.. but just his emotions.. i m starting to change my emotions.. n learn how to control them.. i must treat others the way i wan them to treat me.. stop complaining n nagging bout why the things happened.. things happened for a reason.. so just get over it n find the problem n ffix it.. dun just stop there.. everything n everyone is changing around us. we must be able to change to adapt the to situation.. in order to survive in this scary world out there.. i admit tat its a scary world out there.. learn to treat others the way u wan them to treat u.. n learn to defend urself.. stay positive n work hard on watever u pursuit n be alert to changes so u can adapt to it very fast n nice..

ok.. enuf for the crap today.. tune in for more.. if u wan..lolx...

Tagged by Erin..

Awwww... had been tagged N times but tis is the 1st time doin it.. hehe.. too lazy.. but i m too bored now.. so just give it a try.. so here it goes..

WARNING!! the contents below are for ppl 18 & above, if u feel discomfort, pls dun read tis post.. blek..

Attachment 1: On the Outside
Name: Desmond Lai
Nickname: Lychee, Des Zai, Cutie, Pig, Oi (duno y a lot of ppl call me tis..) etc
Birth Date: 13th April 1988
Current Status: Single ( anyone interested pls leave a msg or PM me.. feel few to drop by)
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Black with a patch of Red/Brown in front (duno y its still there since my last dyed in Feb)

Attachment 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese, Hakka
My Fears: Flying Cockcroach, Reptiles,Heights, Being Fat >.<>
My Weaknesses: Emotional, Think too much, Dual Personality
My Perfect Pizza: Any Pizzas which is not spicy n with lots of CHEESE!!!

Attachment 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thoughts waking up: OMG!!! classes n be a driver again..
Daydreams: Become smart n charming
My bedtime: Have lots of sleep n sweet dreamz...

Attachment 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke (actually i dun like soft drinks)
McDonald's or Pizza Hut: McDonald's (provided that they have special promotions or food)
Single or Group Dates: Single if the date is HOT n i m attracted to my date, Group if the bunch is crazy people like me where i will talk n laugh non stop & relax..
Adidas or Nike: Petaling Street aka Fakes :p
Tea or coffee: or Me...
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!!!
Staying home or going out: Depends
Girl or boy as your child: Doesnt matter as long as they are mine ^_^

Attachment 5: Do You...
Smoke: Socially.. (dun whack me >.< )
Curse: Of Course!! wanna hear some ? Fark, Sark, Diu, WTF etc... hehe..
Take a Shower: Duh... Hu doesnt..
Have a Crush: Ops :x PnC..
Go to School: Is College a School ?
Want to Get Married: Not that Important.. Life Partner with or w/o is fine with me..
Believe in Yourself: Yaya
Think You're a Health Freak: NOPE.. blek..

Attachment 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: Drank, Drinks, will Drink.. ^_^
Gone to the Mall: 3 days a week.. or more.. ;p not like i m a shopaholics
Been on Stage: Yaya.. Like the feel..
Eaten Sushi: My Fav recently..
Dyed Your Hair: Yuppy.. Dun mention >.<

Attachment 7: Have You Ever...
Been in a relationship: Err... >.<" Ya...............
Step on someone's nuts: O.o sure it will be painful >.<
Kicked at someone's nuts: Not Kick but Punch?
Told a boring story: Always..
Burnt the house: Nope.. n not planning to..

Attachment 8: Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: 30 ?
Get a child: 30 ? LOLx or perhaps adopt.. ;pN
Get into a relationship: Now wud be nice.. ^_^


Attachment 9: What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: Breathing... hehe.. singing..
An Hour Ago: Watching Porn.. Ops :x animal porn aka documentaries of animal having sex
Nine Hours ago: Sleeping n Dreaming ( wet ones ? ;p )
A Month Ago: OH i remember!!! SLEEPING!!!!!!!!
A Year Ago: Sadly, i wud have to say SLEEPING again..

Attachment 10: Finish The Sentences
I love: you ops :x
I feel: Horny *shy*
I hate: sleepless nites..
I hide: my private part nicely ^_^
I miss: you, you and you..
I need: You, Love, Money, and to be Smart ^.^

Attachment 11: Tag Other People
Everyone that reads this.. blek.. ngek ngek.. i m evil..

Homemade garlic bread.

this is how u make ur homemade garlic bread..
just grab a stick of french 'baguet' or however u spell it.. u noe the stick like bread which is hard where u can get from carrefour or deli france.. cut it into slices like the pic shown
prepare the spread.. which is chopped garlic with chopped parsley mix with butter.. make sure the butter is soft.. if not u wud be having trouble to mix it n spread it onto ur bread..
this is the bread after u baked it in the oven for 3-5 minutes.. 200 celcius degree... add in some cheese if u wish to.. ^^

Noodles..

ok.. this is the 2nd part of the homemade noodles.. ^_^

tis is the noodles i made.. ready to be served..
this is me frying some ingredients.. such as butter, garlic, bacon, ham, mushroom etc...
tis is where i add in some cream.. to make the sauce...
add in some salt n pepper for taste n simmer it until thickens..
pasta with the sauce i made.. ^_^ add some cheese n parsley for garnishing..tis
if pasta doesnt suit u.. u can try making the chinese one.. 'pan mee' just boil some water with prawns,pork,wantan,bacon,cockles,carrot etc... add some salt n pepper n some fish oil to taste.. add in vege if u like it.. n WALAH... its done.. there is no rule of wat u wan in ur noodles.. remember.. its UR noodle.. so add in wat u like.. ^_^