lecture..

yesterday chatted with R for quite a while.. then i broke down again... i cried.. i felt weak n lonely... of coz.. R is there again.. ask me to be strong.. i m human.. i feel weak too.. but i will try to be strong.. i m not the desmond i used to be.. i nid to be strong to handle everything..

Even the strongest hunk in the world will have his hard times n lonely times.. just tat he din let anyone else see it onli.. we are human.. we have feelings, emotions n ways of thinking.. so its not wrong to be sad or lonely sometiems.. just dun feel tat always.. always think of the positive.. u r allow to be sad n weak n lonely onli if u get over with it n be strong again.. its just like a motivation or stress release for u.. one must handle sadness n loneliness well.. it must be just a flick of mind.. tats it.. then move on with ur life.. be happy .. stay tat way..

The saying goes.. the sun n moon will continue to set n rise no matter how sad or how lonely u are... there is no one in the world who is so powerful n important to make the sun or moon stop rising n setting.. everyone have a life to live on, a road to walk on... its how u wan it to be n how u wan to walk it tat matters.. if u are goin to walk tat road anyway.. my as well u just walk it full of happiness.. Ur own destiny, future, life.. everything is in ur hands.. u r the onli one hu can control n change the way u wan it to be.. choose n lead a happy life which benefits everyone around u.. try to bring them laughter n happiness as u wud wish to be treated the same way..

I was told tat i m very emotional very often.. last time i tot ... wat the hell.. hu cares.. but now.. i think tat it really matters.. as nobody wan to be with someone who is like a bomb tat wud go off at anytime.. so my frenz gets lesser n lesser.. the relationship with my buddies getting futher apart.. hhmm.. tis struck me when i met with someone hu is equally as emotional as i m.. just blow off any moment.. tis moment he might be sweet talking to u. the next he wud just blow at u n start to scream at u.. the feeling sucks.. i hate it.. so tis is wat they say 'u attract those who are same as u' .. i realise the importance of frenship lately n keep wondering why everyone is leaving me or just i cant get someone sincere enuf.. until i met this guy.. he is a good guy actually.. but just his emotions.. i m starting to change my emotions.. n learn how to control them.. i must treat others the way i wan them to treat me.. stop complaining n nagging bout why the things happened.. things happened for a reason.. so just get over it n find the problem n ffix it.. dun just stop there.. everything n everyone is changing around us. we must be able to change to adapt the to situation.. in order to survive in this scary world out there.. i admit tat its a scary world out there.. learn to treat others the way u wan them to treat u.. n learn to defend urself.. stay positive n work hard on watever u pursuit n be alert to changes so u can adapt to it very fast n nice..

ok.. enuf for the crap today.. tune in for more.. if u wan..lolx...