Year End

Year is approaching to the end. Review back. What have I done ? Nothing.
I have been through a lot. and Learned a lot from it. Especially towards the end of the year.
I choose not to wait anymore. Not to hold on anymore. Maintain what is best for all of us.
I do not know what is right or wrong in your eyes. But there is no definite right or wrong.
All I want know is just this......

误会

人與人之间为什么有那么多误会？！而且通常──
越在乎的人，你反而越會對他產生誤會，
越在乎的人，一犯錯反而越不能原諒他，
越在乎的人，你反而對他會越不客氣，
越在乎的人，你反而越會裝做不在乎。

Fragile Fragile Fragile...

Life is so fragile...
One moment you are talking happily with someone, the next moment, that someone flew off to heaven... Before you sleep, you check on someone, you can see movements and hear snoring.. The next day, that someone flew off again. What were your last words to that someone ? Life is filled with so many uncertainties. We won't know what will happen next moment. If you love that someone, tell him/her that you love him/her. Don't wait. Go do what you are supposed to do. Go and tell your loved ones that you love/care them. Don't wait until you lose that chance only regret.

Life is so fragile, Dont you just feel like hugging your loved ones as tight as possible now ? Or kiss them until they are filled with your saliva? ^.^

Random

很多時候，「平凡」反而是上帝賜給一個人最不起眼，
卻也最寶貴的禮物。當你能飛的時候就不要放棄飛
當你能夢的時候就不要放棄夢
當你能愛的時候就不要放棄愛

人生的無奈太多！太多了！
可是，仔細想想，幸福、快樂的事，其實，也不少！
當幸福來時，就讓自己多點勇氣！抓住，屬於你的幸福。
告訴自己，其實，自己是幸運的！只想，在風中，祝福～你～～

Random

愛一個很愛自己的人，真的很幸福～～
如果你遇見了這樣一個稻草人
不要太快生他的氣
想想他為你做的努力
如果你遇見了秋天 不要笑他無理取鬧
想想他是因為愛你 才會變得容易生氣
愛有時不只是默默付出就能懂
偶爾也需要適時說出口
不要吝嗇把愛藏在心中

Lessons

Human nature...
Only we have fallen down or made mistakes or lost it, we learned things and lessons through it. But it is always too late to do so. People tend to move forward and never look behind. If you have lost someone/something because you did not understand some things, then you will lose that someone/something forever. Because he/she/it will never look back anymore or gone forever.

I have learned a lot recently. But is there a chance left for me to let me perform again?

Christmas eve..

I have become weird, unsocialise and eccentric recently. I stayed at home.. doing nothing but just staring at my msn list with nobody online. Who would be online on this very night ? The magical season filled with miracles... It is supposed to be a very happy, warm and romantic night. But... LOL.. All I want for christmas is just this hope. This tiny little wish to come true. I guess it wont come true for me. The bigger the hope, the greater the disappoint. It is true.

Merry Christmas ! If there is still anyone reading this blog.

It is the matter of WHEN, not WHO...

Been watching the movie 'Definitely, Maybe'.. It is about a boy going to New York City to pursue his dreams. From Boy->Man, he had 3 relationships with 3 girls/women. On and off. To cut the story short, One became the mother of his child. One became his lover at the end of the show.

I found out that, the question is isn't about who. It is about when. I have heard countless people telling me that he is not suitable for me, she is not my type, he is not my Mr.Right, she does not match with me. These became the reasons of so many break ups. Actually, that person might match you. It is just your effort to make it worth while. And timing is essential.

For example, A girl wants a mature thinking guy who is caring and wants a marriage. But at the same time, that guy have not experienced enough to be mature for the girl, and is still new at relationships, thus he does not want to get married any sooner. So, they might think that they are not meant for each other. Tolerance comes into the picture. When tolerance reaches the limit before each other grow into the person that they each wants, thousands of reasons would appear for a break up. If they failed to overcome these obstacles together as a couple, break up is the ending.

Years later, as both of them grow and change, they are attracted to each other more than before. The guy had grown into a mature thinking man who wants a family, after what he had experienced in life and work. As for the gal, she had turned into a swan who knows how to take care of herself and others well. Now, they are the perfect match for each other.

Well, it is just one of the example. People always say that they fell for the wrong guy/girl. It isn't the case. It is the timing. The stage where he/she is at. Nobody is perfect and everyone starts from zero. We learn through mistakes and grow from it. People go through stages of life. They were once childish, stupid, self centered, hot tempered, selfish and do not know how to appreciate. Then they experience things and learn from mistakes. They became mature, smart, caring, altruistic, selfless and know how to appreciate things and people.

It is faith that brings two being together. It is very hard for two to know each other and fell for each other at the same time and be together. Appreciate the person you love. Don't give up so easily when obstacles occur. Obstacles are meant to be solved together. Look beyond it. Look beyond his/her weaknesses. You have weaknesses as well. Tolerate his/her weaknesses. Your strengths will supplement his/her weaknesses. Vice versa. As time passes, they will grow and change into your perfect person. Time is essential. It is whether your love and relationship can withstand time or not. That is the challenge ^.^

Every Breath You Take

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you

O can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches with every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

眼泪

曾经有人说：‘人的眼泪代表执著，鬼的眼泪代表重生和爱’. 眼泪得流下是一种情绪的发泄。憋了很久的情绪或接受不了突如其来的变化都借由眼泪发泄出来...有时候不是说值不值得为谁而掉眼泪，而是因为那一时刻的情绪让眼泪流了出来...要强忍泪水是件很艰难的事情...

当情人离开了，泪水地流下并不是只有‘不值得为他流下的伤心眼泪’，还有‘回忆起无法再和他一起度过美好时光的不舍眼泪’。有人告诉我，回想起一切的美好时光，知道这个曾经时时刻刻都陪着你爱着你的人将会永远离开你的生活，那千万般的不舍是非笔墨能形容的...再加上爱得越来越深时，他却选择在那时离开你..这更是更痛...


曾经我阅读过一篇文章：一滴泪落下需要多少时间

我知道，这问题问得似乎很傻。那么轻盈的一滴,流过脸庞，常常只在瞬间。如果是那些琼瑶苦情戏里的演员，几秒钟就可以泪流满面。又何必问，一滴泪，落下的时间？

可我常常觉得，流下一滴眼泪，需要很久很久。人越长大，就越习惯于压抑内心的真实 感受，不再放声大哭放声大笑，什么都只是淡淡的点到为止。好像越来越没有什么事情，可以让我伤心到立刻落泪，像是传说中丢失了泪腺的骆驼，再也找不出，释 放伤感的出口。于是一滴泪，在渗出眼眶之前，早已在心中酝酿了许久，甚至可能在落下之前，已经悄悄蒸发。

一个朋友前阵子和男朋友分了手，一帮死党本来是要赶来安慰她受伤的心的，可她却笑我们太八卦，生生把电影里的伤感离别当成了现实。女孩天天照常上班，吃饭，讲荤笑话，活得滋润而充实，好像比分手前还要容光焕发。

然后一晚，几个死党开玩笑对着蜡烛许愿，又把蜡烛放的老远，说这样都能吹灭方能如愿以偿。几个人嘻嘻哈哈都成功了，轮到了她的时候，偏偏那烛火顽强起来，如何奄奄一息都能死灰复燃，在那里挑逗般的摇曳，于是众人起哄说你没戏了死心吧……

她的眼泪一瞬间喷涌出来，滚滚而下，还在兀自拼命吹着不肯罢休。我从来没有见过这样一种汹涌的哭泣，那不是在流泪，简直是飞流直下三千尺，仿佛她身体里的水突然绝堤。她就那样泪如泉涌的哭了很久，终于承认，她还喜欢他，她是在悄悄不争气的许愿，可以破镜重圆。

她一直辛苦的忍着忍着，不愿那么软弱，不想给人同情的借口，她不愿，让他以为她没有了他就不行。于是那么多悲伤的水，就在心里长久的堆积。她其实一直在流泪的，只是我们看不见，它暗暗流淌了。那么长时间，终于在那一刻可以，一泻千里。

我不知道这是隐忍了多久的泪水，但它终于在这样一个湿润的早上，急速的落下，嚣张的释放。我想还可以有时间有机会自由的哭，总是好的；还可以狠狠的流出眼泪，就说明心还没有干涸；还可以感觉到痛，那是因为灵魂，还没有苍老麻木。

一滴眼泪，要用多长时间，才可以自由释放？……

random

When you know how to appreciate and love that someone, whatever obstacles wont be any barriers anymore. No matter what are the obstacles, think back what had attracted you to be with that someone till you are a couple now. It is part of the work of faith that got you guys together. Of billions of people in the world, you have met, attracted and fell in love with each other at the same time. What are the odds?! Cherish and appreciate with all your heart, soul and life. This does not happen often. Since has loved, do not regret, do not give up easily. Obstacles are meant to be solve by a couple AS a couple. Remember that feeling, that thought and those you had gone through just to be with that someone. Then you will walk a long path together with that someone.

Meaningful songs..

Recently i have been listening to lots of songs.. nice and meaningful songs.. some i have posted the lyrics here.. then i came across these two songs by 潘裕文... those are just some of my thoughts after listening to these songs.. It does not hint anything.

我和你从未分手

心是片土地 我是一个园丁
歌 种一朵花叫做爱情 呵护着不离不弃
当花季远去 眼泪带我旅行
你好吗?我好想你 常常写信寄给回忆
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

空空的夜空 城市燃起灯火
每一盏灯一种寂寞 愿你幸福别漂流
蓝蓝的忧愁 搬进我的生活
越想放手越是紧握 越往前走越是回头
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

我没用 多没用 我推开窗户思念一直推不走
我在梦里掉了一个梦 谁捡到告诉我还给我 别没收
我和你从未分手 你住在我心中
谁也不能把你赶走
一颗心只有一份永久
给了谁就无法回收
我和你从未分手 你活在我爱中
不准人来人往挑拨
一个错要花几倍伤痛
才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

Haha.. this song really portrays the 'stupidity' that someone is still in love in his/her ex. Some would say its stupidity, some would say its loyal or some would say its stubborn... For me, I think that there isn't harm for being in loving with that someone quietly... Loving someone doesnt mean must have him/her. It comes from the heart, wishes that someone always be in the environment filled with happiness... of coz it is undeniable that things changes and people must look forward and move on with life. And there isnt any wrong for still loving that someone quietly and hoping that he/she leads a happy life AND moving on with your own life.

老夫老妻

我能為你試著聊星座 妳卻不肯陪我看棒球
從前會計較誰付出的多 現在卻變成樂在其中
時間的手 牽著我們慢慢走
終於找到和諧的節奏
我不再浪漫 妳也不再溫柔
卻能異口同聲的說想吃些什麼
貼心的小動作 盡在不言中
默契隨著時間更深厚
原來老夫老妻真不錯

我做的飯妳嫌西嫌東 妳開車時換我變囉唆
生活中的芝麻和綠豆 淡是淡些回味卻無窮
時間的手 牽著我們往哪走
走到哪裡都有妳陪我
我不在浪漫 妳也不在溫柔
卻能同時歡呼說今晚星星好多
很幸福的感受 盡在不言中
白頭髮的情人和朋友
原來老夫老妻真不錯

我少了擁抱 妳也少了撒嬌
卻能成為彼此最堅定的依靠
再牽著妳的手 少了點悸動
卻多了份安心和感動
原來老夫老妻真不錯

This song encourages and tells us the story of being in love and grow old with your partner. It is so true. It is like the art of maintaining your relationship. Something everyone is looking forward to.

说好的幸福呢

周杰伦 《说好的幸福呢》

你的绘画凌乱着.
　　在这个时刻.
　　我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
　　甜蜜散乱了.

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了倦了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐


Have you ever engaged in a relationship ? Have you made promises which you can't keep ? Or have you heard promises which have not been kept by that someone ?

Whenever a promise is made during relationship, it is up to you to trust it or not. And it is up to you on how much to trust and how much hope you put on it. I am sure when you are deeply in love, you will trust and believe whatever he/she said. But you must bear in mind that when love is gone, promises gone with the wind as well. How many people can keep their promises after the relationship ended ? Perhaps only those who are still deeply in love with that someone , but events had forced the break up. Or those who are naive enough to think so. But who is there to judge whether it is a waste of time for keeping those promises ?

不够成熟

詞：詹予萱　　曲：詹予萱/蔡政勳
我想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到 你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念 你走以後

離開 難道真的是解脫
難道 真的要事過境遷了以後才懂

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭 決不讓眼淚往下流

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過 笑著和你揮揮手

如果有一天 我們有緣再見
你會不會想起 說過的 永遠

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭 決不讓眼淚往下流

倔強說不痛 假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過 笑著和你揮揮手

Hope and dreams...

Finally, after weeks and weeks of sleepless nights... I have handed in my assignment today! First time in my college life that I was not rushing for any last minute jobs on the assignment. I felt relieved! After the burden was off my shoulders, I felt super duper tired...

I know assignment is just a tiny little thing compared with those challenges waiting for me outside. But recent events made me tired physically and mentally. I am not putting any blame on anyone, but just myself. It is because I have chosen this path myself and ruined it with my own bare hands. Now, i have to face the consequences. It is overwhelming. I hope I can handle it well.

Lately, i had lots of dreams related to these recent events. Dreams that gave me hope, dreams that left me with a wet pillow in the morning, dreams that messed up my bedsheets, dreams that left me felt more exhausted... ( Nope, it isn't wet dreams ) Dreams, are often your wants, future, past or perhaps a clue/tips from God. It might happen in the future, it might show you your path, it might be just what you wish to happen... Nobody knows... Nobody knows... Nobody knows...

There are some things which you lose it, you will lose it forever. The only time that you see it coming back to you its when you are dreaming. Dreams that gave you hope. Which it will hurt you more when awaken from it, back to reality that you have lose it forever. It will not be yours anymore. It will not be the same anymore.

The magical season, Xmas which filled with miracles is here once again. This time, I hope that my dream will come true to me. All I want is just this dream to come true. Please...

人世间最痛苦的事

曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，
我没有珍惜，
等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，
人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。
如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，
我会对那个他说三个字：我爱你。
如果非要在这份爱上加上一个期限，
我希望是……
一万年！

我用所有报答爱

recently i 've watched the move - the banquet 夜宴 again.. awesome movie.. okok... perhaps not really awesome.. but i like the story.. so meaningful... everything they did was all because of love.. and the song is soooo nice.... awww.. i fell in love with it again.. lol..

我用所有报答爱
演唱：张靓颖
作曲：谭盾
作词：范学宜
钢琴：郎朗
电影《夜宴》 片尾曲

只为一支歌
血染红寂寞
只为一场梦
摔碎了山河
只为一颗心
爱到分离才相遇
只为一滴泪
模糊了恩仇
我用所有报答爱
你却不回来
岁月……从此一刀两段
永不见风雨
风雨……风雨…

Dream

This morning, i had a dream.. okok.. perhaps a few.. but i only remember one... so this is what i dream of :

I was at this village, overlooking some bulls and farmers at work. All of a sudden, raging flood came and swept all the bulls and farmers... bulls trying to run.. then i also started to run.. but too late.. the flood caught me. A bull was near me, so i grab hold on him. Hanging on to him for my dear life. I saw a few giraffe head... they were walking in the flood -.-" then the bull i was holding on became a elephant O.o i could recognise the back! coz i rode an elephant before in thailand. LOL. Then he was struggling, trying to get me off. I felt that i was drowning. But then i managed to hold on to him and got back on. -n-

i am a bit superstitious :x so i went online and search for dream interpretations.. haha.. so this is what i got :

Flood
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging flood, then it represents emotional issues and tension. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension.

Village
To dream that you are in a village, represents restrictions. It may also indicate that you are unsophisticated, but well-balanced. Alternatively, it signifies community, simplicity, and tradition.

Elephant
To see an elephant in your dream, indicates that you need to be more patient or more understanding of others. Or perhaps there is a memory that you are holding on to for too long. You need to let go of the past. The elephant is also a symbol of power, strength, faithfulness and intellect. Alternatively, the elephant's introverted personality may be a reflection of your own personality.

To dream that you are riding an elephant, indicates that you are in control of your unconscious and aspects that you once were afraid of.

Bull
To see a bull in your dream, symbolizes stubbornness, strong will, strength, and power. The dream may be telling you that it is time to take a stand and be more assertive. Alternatively, the bull indicates a rich, prosperous, and abundant life. Consider the pun, "being bull-headed". May be you need to show a little compromise in a situation.

Giraffe
To see a giraffe in your dream, suggests that you need to consider the overall picture. Take a broader view on your life and where it is headed.

Drowning
To dream that you are drowning, signifies that you are overwhelmed by emotions or repressed issues that is coming back to haunt you. You may be proceeding too quickly in trying to discover your unconscious thoughts. If you drown to death, your relationship will fail or you will suffer major business losses. If your survive the drowning, then your relationship will be rescued by some intervention. You will rise to a higher position of wealth and honor.

So i guess it it trying to tell me something.. LOL!

重来 - 李圣杰

有多少爱能重来，
多少人愿意等待，
失去之后才明白。
走进回忆的安排，
一幕一幕的对白，
上演我们的未来。
期待，原来是一种伤害，
深爱的人已离开。
是我不该忽略你给我的爱。
现在我只想回到最初的时候，
不愿让你再泪流，
寂寞时候只有你会陪着我。
现在我只想回到最初的时候，
我知道你还爱着我。
亲爱的你请你握紧我的手。
请你看看我，
真的需要你的我，
只要你回头......