scared...

Hhmmm.... so long din blog d lor.. bout one month?? lol..

tis few days i feel 'weird'.. duno leh.. haihz... coz i see many things.. too many i think.. hehe... i just realise so many things.. haihz.. hate it sometimes... u noe everytime u nag bout something n talk bad bout something?? or even whine bout something bad had happen to u? or u feel unfair?? now i noe d... i noe tat we must not see the bad side of things.. must see it from the good side... always look on da bright side lo..

these few months.. many things happen to me.. i knew too many things.. maybe i m big enuf.. so ppl started to tell me bout things... things i din noe.. or dun even knew tat it could be real! real sad to noe it.. for somethings la... after watching 'i not stupid too'... it really makes me think so many things leh... nice movie.. watch it.. haha... i actually cried few times... funny n touching... the things they say there very true n great... love it..

hhmmm... so many things i said up there.. but i duno wat i m talking about.. lol.. after i noe some truth.. i start to accept it.. n tis is now i knew tat its not easy to accept the truth!!! everytime i watch tv, then something bad happen... then i wud think: no need lidat gua.. where got so kua cheong... how can ppl b so sad for so long leh? or how come ppl get metally ill/become psycho after they knew something leh??? now onli i knew y.. how hard is it.. haihz.. maybe i m trying to run away from it... i duno.. but i m scare.... i noe it will happen someday.. n for some.. i noe it had passed.. so it doesnt matter.. but but but.. i cant afford to take it!!! I M VERY SCARE!!!!

haihz.. frenz.. some of u might say take it easy.. but... i noe its easy to say n to b done lor... coz last time i might tell u guys ok la.. nothing la.. everything will b alright.. but but but... its actually very hard to deal with the truth!!! i m not telling anybody wats all the matters... but i will tell.. one person... onli... n its not chuan.. haha...so dun force him lor... its really some HUGE secrets!!! sorry coz i cant tell.. haihz.. feel really down...