'Mask'

People been telling me that wearing a 'mask' and hiding behind it its essential in this crucial world. Last time i would disagree with them about it. I would say that sometimes showing your inner feelings towards others it's okay. There would be arguments and all.......

Now, I would agree with them. Wearing a 'mask' IS essential. Hide all your inner feelings and thoughts. Hide whatever you got behind that 'mask' and wear a 'robe' if possible. Don't show others what is your Power Card / Last Card / watever card you call it.. lol... Don't show your desperation either. In the Law of Bargaining - NEVER show that you are desperate! Showing others and telling others about you being sad and crying in front of them its a form of stupidity and weakness.It shows that you are weak. You would not want that to happen as you grow older.

I am not the only one who thinks so. It won't be surprised that 80% of the adult population out there is wearing a 'mask' everyday. Why ? In this crucial world, especially adults in the business world, working world and relationship, nobody wants to get hurt. Showing too much of your inner thoughts and feelings tends to be a disadvantage to you. If they have to, people will tend to hide away, fake their smile and fake the things they say. If not, you will be the one who have to bear the consequences.

Run Away~

There are times when you just want to be alone...
no matter how talkative and active you are...
you still want to be alone...
its like a phase...
all of a sudden..
you just want to run and hide...
run far far away from wherever you are..
just want to run away to somewhere where nobody knows you..
a place where you would not need to worry about things..
just run far far away from people that you know.. family, frenz, colleague etc.
There are no rational reasons behind it..
you just want to run away...
You just want to be away from people...
Want some peace.. Some quiet time...
Its so tiring... you just want to relax...

I am feeling so... and i am not alone.. there are a few people around me who feels the same too.. what happened ? nobody knows.. Reason? nobody knows either... Don't ask me.. i don't know why i am feeling it also... >.<"

Watch Your Lips and Mouth

Recently, a lot of things happened... It made me think a lot. We shouldn't take things for granted. Appreciate what you have because you might lose it the very next moment. You wont know what will happen in the future. Do your best Now. Learn from Your past experience. Work for a Better Future. i Finally understand this idiom or watever you call it.. LOL!

That day i saw the front page of a newspaper : Watch your Mouth and Lips. Although i did not read about the article, but it got me thinking. That got me realize about some mistakes i have done. Haiz.. too late.. i made mistakes which i regretted a lot !!! Basically what i am trying to say in this blog is that, Watch what you say... The hardest and most complicated subject to learn in this life i think would be the art of communication between people. Master it and you will benefit from it A LOT! Fail it and you will face problems in life, especially when you get older and come out to work.

I have been thinking about these to help me improve and grow from my mistakes...

1. What....
What are you going to say ?
Trying to please your boss...
i. 'Boss! You look so pretty today! ' ( Correct )
ii 'Boss! You have small boobs! ' ( Wrong )

2. Who...
Who are you saying it to ?
Trying to compliment...
i. ' Babe! you have the nicest boobs i have ever seen! ' ( Correct )
ii. ' Dude ! you have the nicest boobs i have ever seen! ' ( Wrong )

3. Where...
Where are you saying it ?
i At a party ' AWESOME!!! Lets Rock and Roll! ' ( Correct )
ii At a church service ' AWESOME!!! Lets Rock and Roll! ' ( Wrong )

4. When...
When are you saying it ?
i. ' Its delicious! ' When you are eating at a restaurant ( Correct )
ii. ' Its delicious! ' When you are shitting in da toilet ( Wrong )

5. Why...
Why are you saying it ?
i. ' You have a nice body ! ' to show compliment ( Correct )
ii ' You have a nice body ! ' to show sarcastism ( Wrong )

6. How...
How are you saying it ?
i ' I think you have a drip of sauce on your shirt that you might want to clean it ' ( Correct )
ii ' Don't you know how to eat ?! Sauce are all over your shirt ! ' ( Wrong )

Think twice before you speak next time... you might hurt someone and you might regret about it. It might get you a promotion or a lover or a new house or car ^.^ Saying the right thing at the right time at the right place to the right person with the right way and right reason is the thing you need to learn !

Grow Not Change

Once, someone told me that everything changes, but human does not change. Why? because we grow. Two years back, i had an opportunity to read an awesome book called ' Who Moved My Cheese ? '. For those who are fond of reading, i am sure you would have read it, or at least know about this book. Anyway, i am not going into details about this book. All i just want to say its just that this book shows me how does changes in our life affect us and how we deal with it.

Whatever happens, good, bad, happy, sad, big, small etc. we must appreciate it. No matter what. Accept it. Look through it. Look around it. Think about it for a moment or two. Adapt to its changes. Pack up your feelings and whatever you can learned from it and then move on. For better or worse, at least you had tried before.

By moving on, it means that you are accepting the fact of what had changed. One thing which i need to clarify and emphasize here : moving on doesnt only mean that you are changing whatever you have. It can also mean that you grow from what you have experienced. It isnt always the option to just leave the thing for a better one. Especially in relationship. Although it is always the best to just move on and find another who will be a better ( or worse ) partner. But then it doesnt mean that you CANT stick with the current one.

Hhhmmm.. let me explain further on this issue. What would be better is that if you can grow from your mistakes and attitudes. CHANGE to become better. Not only for yourself nor your partner but for everyone else either. It is always da best for someone to grow to become a better person. For example, if you have broken up in a relationship due to your bad temper or you are being a big spender, GROW up dude! change that bad habit of yours ! GROW up and become more mature and you would start to think about it. Think about your bad habits. Then you will start to realise things. And make changes to it. To become a better person. And who knows that your Ex partner will love you back ? Or your Boss will promote you instead of firing you ?

Emo~

Emo~~~~~

I am a guy who is full of emotions. In other words, i am an emotional guy and hot tempered. Just a simple little thing can make me laugh out loud, cry the next second, throw tantrum the next moment. Sometimes it benefits me but most of the time it harms me and brings lots of problems & troubles to me.

Normally the word 'emotional' is being labeled on females and people with artistic character. You seldom hear that a guy is emotional. It is because guys tend to keep all their emotions to themselves, showing their emotions toward others portray the image that they are weak. Nowadays, with globalization and competitions, people tend to be more stressful just to make a living. Thus, their emotions tend to be like a roller coaster. It changes very fast, going very high at this moment, very low another moment. There are also people who are born with this personality, aka ME!

It isn't wrong to have such a personality. It is one of the criteria that makes you YOU! Standing out from others, differentiate from others. Although it is always seen as a negative aspect, but whatever negative, there will always be something positive behind it. Just like the Ying Yang Theory. Don't blame yourself for having such a behaviour. Well, if you know that it is till the state that harms you, just learn how to control it. Facing your own weakness is better than running away from it.

I am just going to share some of my ways of controlling my emotions and temper. Keeping it. Making it a smooth ride rather than a roller coaster which scares everyone.
1. Clench my fist as hard as possible and hold my thought and actions. Let all my negative energy and tantrum goes to my fist. well, not to hit anything or anyone. Just clench it. Or perhaps squeeze a stress ball. After my hand ran out of strength, then only I make decisions.
2. just hum or sing a song that comes to my mind. Of cause inside my head, because i do not want everyone to think that i am crazy for bursting out a song in the middle of a conversation or argument. For instance, Winner Takes it All ( Meryl Streep version ) It is FULL of emotions and passions...
3. Think of something else. Mostly about mother nature. To change my focus.

How about you? What would you do when you feel emo ? or your temper is rising?

Argument

Does argument really improve relationship between two party ? Or it cracks the relationship between two party ?

Undoubtedly, argument does bring two party along if it is treated in a good condition with proper emotion and understanding. But it does bring harm in relationship coz when u argue, u are more likely to be more aggressive. And of coz things get worse when someone or something gets too aggressive.

In a relationship, dun care its frenship, couple or family, sometimes an argument might spice up things. But it must not be too aggressive and too often. Argument which happen too often will make two party become tired after some time. very tired... and of coz.. problems will occur.

Cause? ignorance, lack of respect, lack of caring, dun even know it when u are guilty or making a mistake, misunderstanding... u name it.. but in a relationship, does it worth to argue everytime? if dun argue, one party will have to 'eat dead cat' or try to hold back and just smile.. this is life... there are so many ppl out there that their attitude, personality and character crashes with us.. wat we can do? nothing.. to avoid argument and crack in relationship.. just be it.. coz knowing each other and getting along isnt easy...

Sometimes i wonder if i am being too picky and choosy over things? or i am being too dominant and wants everything to be my way? or is it the other party being ignorant ? or the other party that shows no care ? Even if all argument ended with forgive and forget... but arguing too often does bring some effect.. negative effect.. >.<"

Open minded, Positive thinking out of negative things

I have always been judgmental towards other people.. it is good to be judgmental towards others.. but i did too much of it. i tend to complain a lot when these people i met doesnt meet up to my expectations. I will either start to complain about them or criticize them on their behaviour, personality, attitude, background etc.... anything u can think of that gets in my way or does not favour me. yeah.. i know.. i am a pain in the ass... LOL..

Everything is changing everyday, whether u like it or not, realise it or not.. and people tend to grow mentally and physically when the time is right. this time here varies among different people. By meeting the right people/situation/material at the right time, it will tend to strike us in a way that will change our thinking and perhaps behaviour. Mine came when one of my lecturer said ' Why must you be so judgmental ? Why can't you just accept it with an open mind and take in whatever its good for you and leave the rest alone? '

BAMM!!! it struck me! it got me thinking... There are billions of people out there.. i cant just complain and criticise them if they do not favour me... Nobody is perfect.. this includes me.. i am not perfect, so why should i complain and criticise other people? I should accept everyone as it is including their bad and good.. be open minded... this is because there are so much things that I can learn from them due to their background, behaviour, personality, attitude etc.. Nobody is identical in this world.. Even the slightest difference can teach us something useful.

We must always think positive and seek for anything which is positive for us to learn from other people, but not focus on their negative things. Nobody wants to be criticize and being complaint about everyday right? so start looking for these positive things and think positively! Even there are lots of negative things, we must find every positive things out of the negative things..

We must be thankful ...
1. For the husband/wife that snores everynight, because he is at home asleep with me but not with anyone else
2. For the taxes i pay because it means that i am employed
3. For the mess i need to clean up after a party because i am surrounded by frenz
4. For the clotes that fit a little too snug because i have enough to eat
5. For a floor that needs mopping and sweeping because i have a home
6. For all the complains that i hear of the government because i have freedom of speech
7. For the parking spot i find at the far end because i am capable of walking and i am blessed with a vehicle
8. For the noise that i have to bear from my noisy neighbours because i can hear
9. For the pile of laundry and ironing because i have clothes to wear
10. For the weariness and aching of muscles at the end of the day because i am capable of working hard
11. For the alarm clock that goes on every morning because i am ALIVE!
12. For the lousy lecturer i get because i am able to distinguish good and bad + evaluate and analyse things
13. For my other half that nags and grumbles everyday because i am blessed with a beloved that cares me

there are many more u positive things u can get from these negative things.. just be think positively and open minded!

Bored till siao jor......

WAHAHHAHAHHA.. got so bored that i saw this post of my fren... thought it would kill some time.. so i just did the same thing as he did... which he got it from his gf.. LOL!!! so here it goes...

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal (optional).

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What is your first response if you realized that #26 was missing?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? (optional)

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAH... bored till siao jor.. COME HERE and comment !!! ooo.. forgot the magic word and stare...

PLEASE................. *puppy eyes*

Stupiak Driver !

This morning i was traveling at 80 kmph on a highway in KL. Suddenly i saw a car coming from behind. it was tailing me like mad. Due to the reason that my mom is in the car, so i had chose to move aside and let him overtake me.

It was a 2 lane highway and i was on the right lane aka fast lane. So, i looked into my left side mirror and back mirror to double confirm that there isnt any car on my left or there is enough space for me to move into the left lane. When i looked into the mirrors, i saw a car on the left lane. But it was quite some distance away. Approximately 3 cars distance. With the speed i was driving, the distance was enough for me to switch lane. Therefore, i put my signal to the left and started to switch lane.

The bloody fool on the left lane was coming at me at a very high speed! My car its already 3 quarters on the left lane. Instead of stepping on the brake, he pressed on his horn! BLOODY HELL!!! He nearly bang into me, but luckily he didnt. After sounding the horn for about 2 minutes, he took the left turnoff. I was so shocked! Why the hell did he sound the horn ?!

I double confirmed the space and there isnt any car close enough to bang me. i put my signal. and i did not slow down. i travel with the same speed. he was 3 cars behind me when i put my signal and switched lane ! Either he is dreaming or sleeping while driving that he didnt notice me that i had moved onto his lane, OR he must be a bloody fool that doesnt believe in stepping on the brake and letting other people to cut into his lane and slow him down!

In the car, i yelled ' FUCK YOU! '. I guessed he didnt hear that. All i just wanna say is KNNMCBDNSDGNMCCBKNNSSTFUYSBISSHTLN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HORN ME FOR WHAT!? rewind the bloody traffic camera on the highway and you will know that its not my fault ! ( i know there is a few traffice camera on the highway *ngek ngek* )

P/S i get very grumpy and lots of vulgar words and curses while i am driving... *evil grins*