海螺，种种的思念和愿望

今天又到了海螺去听歌..很享受这种感觉和气氛...也很怀念一起唱歌，一起在海螺聊天的时刻..
还记得去年的生日有了场生日派队在哪里..好开心，好怀念！！朋友们，我好想念你们！!

很喜欢听歌，尤其是现场的...很喜欢来海螺...每次不开心时，来这里就会心情开朗些..最近都常来..
有谁肯时常陪我坐在海螺那里听歌呢？就只是纯粹的听歌和一点点的谈天...没有谈天也无所谓..haha
刚才突然想到一些东西..好想和喜欢的人时常来这里..好想被喜欢的人抱着聊天时他偶尔唱歌给我听..每天都这样也无所谓...突然也很想念以前一起练歌和唱歌........

*大猪猪，谢谢你的陪伴和对我不离不弃！
*我的朋友们，回来好吗？我好想念你们...

expectations..

i tot i had done well enuf to score it.. but i think i did not do enuf..
i expect to score it.. even with the minimum marks to just score it.. coz i wan it badly..
i think not badly enuf i think.. n i m not putting all my 101% into it..
the higher the expectations, the bigger the disappointments..
it really hurts... i cant focus when i m driving home just now..
my mind just went blank when i saw it.. couldnt believe it..
couldnt believe tat i hadnt score for the subject i m most interested in n most confident one..
i guess i just have to accept the fact tat i m just not tat good.. or i m just too lazy...
BUT I STILL CANT ACCEPT IT YET!!!!!!!

*eating chocolate as my lunch.. chocolate can calm oneself n makes someone happy.. but tis time.. it din work..*

expect the unexpected next time.. u wud be happier.. n dun put too much expectations in something.. u will get hurt..

mistake

i din noe tat i had created the problem..
i din noe tat i arose him from ur heart..
i made a mistake.. a big one.. i m sorry..
now i noe the truth.. (i think)
maybe u nid some time.. n i shall leave u alone for a while..
sorry.. din meant to hurt u...

New...

think of you.. wat your feelings..
put myself in ur shoes to understand wat situation u are in..
care for u..
protect u..
be good to u..
act as though i wan to be treated in that same way as wat goes around comes around..
treat u sincerely..
learn to forgive and forget..
when u say u r alright, make sure u are really alright as u like to act tough n hide ur feelings but inside u are very weak n soft..
learn how to help u..

maybe i cant make u forget about him n i wont try to.. its ur memory.. part of ur sweetest memory.. its the memory that makes the person u r now.. but he is the past.. wat has passed had been passed.. look forward to the future.. there are a lot of ppl in the future waiting for u to cherish their lives... i noe tat i m waiting for tat to happen.. u can keep him deep down in ur heart.. but u have to make place for someone else.. its time to move on my dear.. i hate the ignorance and the avoidance u r giving me... pls dun do tat.. lets start of something new..

Needs...

Everything is better this way.. will not proceed anymore.. this is happy enough for me, i think.. i just want to get to know more about you.. understand you more.. thats all.. lets just keep this relationship and fuck those Love Love thingy 1st.. i think its better for us to settle down with the relationship now 1st.. for some time at least.. and enjoy this very moment b4 jumping into deeper relationship..

everyone just like to jump into relationships just like that.. they want things fast.. like the trend nowadays.. everything fast fast fast... rush here n rush there.. and when it ends.. they wud whine that y become like this n tat..

we must take everything step by step.. make sure that you have step on it firmly and strongly and stable.. b4 getting on to another step.. n u must enojy n be happy with every step u make.. make sure u enjoy it to the fullest. if u find tat the step is not stable or insecure or does not suit u.. just try to make it work.. if not.. just stop right there.. bcoz as u go further.. u will fall n hurt urself.. if u follow the steps n be happy bout it.. i m sure one dayu will reach to the top n get ur reward.. this applies to a lot of aspects.. includes family, love, frenship, work, study etc.. as for relationships.. it will help u find the mr/ms right.. then u wud be happily together forever..

since i m talking bout this.. i wud like to talk a bit bout some econs.. or shud say management theory - motivation aspect.. its the Maslow's Hierachy of Needs.. basically it states that we have 5 levels of needs.. we must fulfill one b4 proceeding to the next level.. one must satisfy their basic needs b4 proceeding to higher needs..

I'll Stand by You

This is a song by 'The Pretenders' and Carrie Underwood also sings this too..
Very nice tis song.. wud like to dedicate this song to him..
i had put it on the playlist on the right -> just below my profile.. u can listen to it while reading my blog.. will change the song next week.. hope that you will enjoy and understand the words..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you

Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

Have u ever..

Have you ever fell in love with someone who can't forget about his/her ex?
Have you ever experience some intimidate actions with someone you like but in fact he/she just treat you as a fren?
Have you ever talk to someone that you like but he/she hides his/her feelings and thoughts from you?
Have you ever feel like meeting the one you like but he/she is bz n cant meet u? (ALWAYS!!!)

It SUCKS n i m experiencing all of it!!!

it always sucks when you like someone but that someone does not like u back.. but that does not stop me.. it wud be great if i cud love someone n get to noe tat someone bit by bit, day by day.. i wud spend my time n effort in getting to noe u better.. i learnt a lot of things from u.. although u din speak much.. i wud be happy if u wud try ur best in getting to noe me better..


i was wrong.. i shud not say to win u over.. u r a human.. n i love u.. so i cant use the word 'win'.. u r someone to me.. n tat someone is very important.. i dream of u last nite AGAIN.. duno y..
i duno if i m 3 minutes heat.. but i m for sure tat i wud like to get to noe u more n be with u more.. tat i m very sure.. really hope tat u wud open up ur heart.. let go of him... n prepare to let another in to make ur life fill with colours n wonders.. i really do hope tat i cud just go deep down inside n explore n make a mark so deep tat u cant forget me no matter wat happens.. hehe.. stupid me.. imagine too much le.. but i really do hope it wud happen.. well.. hopes motivate us to become happier n a better person.. rite ? anyway.. i just wan u to be happy always.. dun be sad always ya.. i will be there when u nid me..

Release of anger

there are lots of ways to release anger or stress.. and different ppl have different ways of doin it..

for example.. swearing, banging head on wall, pinching, biting, driving recklessly etc..

for me.. swearing is the best way.. one morning, i was sending my dad n sis to work.. my mom came along.. all of a sudden, a motorbike from my left swift to the right without warning or signals.. i cursed him, 'damn it! wan die izzit?'then my mom told me that i can't curse ppl die.. plus its early in the morning.. then i just kept quiet.. then she went on, 'if u wanna release ur anger.. just say 'diu nya sing!' i was not shocked bcoz me n my mom always talk about dirty jokes n swear words.. we take it as a joke or some entertainment.. nothing else.. so next time whenever ppl drive recklessly, dun curse them.. just say 'diu nya sing!'

another way is that singing while i m driving.. i like it very much.. but onli when i m alone..wud turn my cd player to full blast then i wud sing along while driving.. scream all i wan.. mostly during the nights.duno y.. ^_^

anyhow.. just find urself one way of release ur anger or stress.. u will be a happy person.. haha.. make sure its not something that wud harm other ppl..

I am BACK!!!

Lets start off with something happy..
these are my birthday presents ^_^
its a ring necklace.. i noe its very common.. but it means a lot to me and it looks AWESOME!!!
i got a teddy named 'sweetheart' , its the right one.. the left one wud be 'kapo' ..
n this is the most memorable one.. Haagen Daz fondue.. hehe.. in Penang!!!